it will likely be over something meaningless and trivial.
Sometimes I feel like I don't care-that I've been hurt too much. I'm very detached.
But if I'm so detached, why does it piss me off so bad when he makes the little digging remarks designed to make me doubt myself, my abilities, etc?
Am I not as detached as I need to be? Or am I mad at him for being "stuck on stupid"?
I have a hard time with that kind of stupidity. He's had a near death experience that he hasn't learned a damned thing from. He just goes on like he always has, playing his stupid goddamned games. After all these years, the whole family is now onto him(except for a sibling who lives very far away and has no clue)
I get the impression that he thinks he's clever enough to fool us-that he thinks we're too stupid to see his bullshit games for what they are.
I think he feels lousy about himself, but won't admit it. I don't know why, nor do I even care after all the shit he's put me through. Dude, get some therapy already and leave us alone. Quit trying to drag us down there with you already.
I'm tired of paying in blood sweat and tears for YOUR shortcomings. Scorched earth-Like Peter the Great, he burns up his own territory in order to gain the upper hand while his own people suffer.
I don't need you to be happy. I just need you to leave me alone when I am.