Working on R a little over nine months now. Ups and downs. Had been ready to call it quits several times and one more slip up and it is over.She KNOWS this.
Just typing for right now. My WW is heading to a meeting tonight after work. It's an hr away from home in a town she use to work in and in which the HW still does. It's an training session for educational hours for her professional designation. This is also a town where where she met several people she had sexted. My mind is going a mile a minute and feel my pulse revving.
She just called me to talk and to try to give me comfort. She knows this makes me uncomfortable. I'm sure she'll text during the meeting and call me afterwards.
What also made me nervous is that she also wanted to take make some free dance lessons tonight at a bar that the scum bastard frequents. My wife and I are trying new/different things together and one thing she always wanted more from me is to go dancing. We took some lessons together, but she felt like she was more rusty and didn't feel as comfortable as she use to be with it. She wanted to go tonight to get a little more practice. This is line dancing tonight, so no couple dancing. She invited me to to, but I got the hint she wanted to go alone. This bar is much closer to home though. She's going to the meeting first, then on the way home stop by for the lessons. When she just called, she said she may skip the lessons and just come on home to be with me, which does make me feel better.
I could say "no" can't go to either without me, but I really have pressing things that I've got to get done this evening and can't spend the hour drive each way, hour meeting, and so on. As soon as I sign off here, I'll be working through the rest of the night... to be independently wealthy!! Anyway, obviously still trying to build the trust. I know, it's just been 9 months.... Hate this feeling. I'm sure she'll come home, I'll see the paperwork from her meeting, timelines will match up, gps will show where she's been at, and all will be fine. I'm pissed that I shouldn't have to go through this shit! I want a normal life back!! Oh well, new normal, right?
Have to run, thanks for listening! Everyone have a great night and hope you have an evening filled with peace!