WH doesn't want me on anti-depressants. HE hates the idea of me being numbed to my feelings. I had issues with anti-depressants in the past but right now I feel I need them. I can't get the clouds to lift at all. I will think I'm OK, but then I go right back down again.
I think he doesn't want me on meds because he'll have to admit his shit is the reason I'm going to end up back on them -- after handling it all naturally for the last year - changing my diet, changing my life. He literally kicked me right back down the mountain and dammit that pisses me off. I don't want a man to be the reason I end up back on meds. I don't know if I should wait all this out or just gve up and realize I'm not strong enough to get out of his slump on my own.
I'm pregnant...maybe seven weeks, so I don't know what I can take. My son is going to be seven next week and I'm not ready for him to grow up and all of this -- making me feel so insecure and lost. I'm just not sure what to do.