Okay, so WH lets me know that he and Obitch had a conversation about them being girlfriend and boyfriend, and he (at first) only told me that when she asked, he said: "No."
Now, I find out there was more conversation in which she tried to convince him of the merits of keeping this "relationship" to themselves, and he said: "No. Not leaving my family, blah, blah, blah."
He didn't tell me this before so I'm not sure it's gutting me so much now. I mean, I should feel victory, right? He told her he wasn't leaving his family for her and shut her down on the whole "Nobody has to know" shit.
But...I still feel gutted, like a goddamn sucker punch from a sixth degree black belt would be so much more preferred than this.
Why does it hurt when I should be doing a fist pump because at least the bitch got her feelings hurt? Why does it hurt so FUCKING much?
I am so sorry. I imagine she felt the same way you do now when he told her he wasn't leaving. She gave him her "everything" and he only gave her his crumbs.
I'm so sorry. I hate this for all of us.
p.s. I LOVE your term Obitch!
[This message edited by Raven96 at 3:57 PM, November 4th (Monday)]
Because infidelity hurts forever.
Both those things make me feel like crap bc he possibly traded his wife and family for someone he liked only as a "friend" but not even a close one and mediocre sex. Yep that makes me feel just great.
why would a BS still feel gutted?
I think that until the scar tissue has had time to heal, each new bit of information is just going to rip us back open.
It feels like a fresh DDay when lies are exposed or new information is presented.
It is my hope that after the WS sees what aftershocks do to their BS, the will steel themselves and rip the bandaid off once and for all.
The prospect of telling someone you care about something that would hurt them is scary, but getting it all out saves you from future "guttings." Timelines are good for this.
If you need to have information like the kind you have just received in order to feel like there are no more secrets, maybe you can find a way to tell him that the more he volunteers the sooner this nightmare will be behind you and you can work on tomorrow.
I'm so sorry that it hurts like this all over again for you. You're not alone - we've all felt this way.
For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning. - T.S. Eliot
At first is sounds good - but then the BS realizes, if only at a gut level, that the WS has already left for the ap, and now the WS just plans on cake eating.
We start hearing the line as positive. Then comes a very big let down when we realize 'I'll never leave my BS' is pure, toxic bullshit.
The one possible exception is if the WS says, 'I'll never leave my BS, and I realize I've really effed up. I'm going NC with you, my dear ap, right now.' In that case, the line isn't meaningless.