Sounds like they started a EA while he was at the farm and it has escalated to a PA. He will lie to cover his guilt and you are the bad guy because he can't face responsibility for his bad behavior.

You won't get any answers from him, so don't ask any more questions. That just pushes him farther away. He can't deal with it so you are the cause of everything. Don't accept that. Become independent, get out with friends, be busy. Don't sit and wait for him because the more you do the more he will resent you.

Does the anger go away? It is like he absolutely hates me and yet he is the one who walked out on me leaving me to pick up the pieces. I am running the farm and the business. He hasn't even asked once about any of it.

He could just be one of those people who run and never look back. I am prepared for that because right now he seems to not be feeling any of it. Especially with her there to protect him from having to feel the loss of a 10yr relationship.

I have tried hard to look at my faults in the marriage. It wasn't always perfect but we were best friends. I didn't see him being unhappy. He said he gave me "chances" and he tried to talk to me. Um, okay really I am not a stupid person and I managed to miss it.

You need to get tested for STD's ASAP! I'd bet this isn't this 24 year old tart's first rodeo.

Everything you have described are red flags for an affair. You're not crazy, it's just your WS is a weak-minded fool that needs to paint you as an evil, vile, disgusting, controlling wife in order to displace the fact he's dumped you (on your birthday, no less) for some 24 year old who only strokes his ego.

Please look into the 180 and focus on YOU! Your WH is being an immature and selfish, cheating prick. Don't let his blame-shifting and guilt mechanisms effect you.

Good luck to you!

These truisms are often wrong. One person can be responsible. This is especially true when the marriage is struck, as if by lightning, out of the blue.

It's not your fault. Time for the 180. I'm so sorry.

Could have I really missed him being unhappy and not in love with me.

Hon...probably you didn't miss a thing...its all bullshit...cheaters will rewrite the marital history to justify their actions...accept this as a trait of cheaters....another one is they are liars...at this point in my FWWs (former wayward wifes) affair....I didn't believe a damn thing she said....and you don't need to believe your WH (wayward husband)...

As others have stated above - "this is NOT your fault"....you didn't do anything....you didn't cause him to make a decision to cheat....you have zero blame in all this...

Have you read the "healing library"? Its in the yellow box on the left side of this screen...please do...and yes, the whole thing....it contains a wealth of information about affairs...the dynamics of them, the thought processes of cheaters...and strategies for you go get past this...with without him...

Keep us posted...

Bufffalo

I'm willing to bet that he was happy and in love with you until OW came on the scene. When he started an inappropriate relationship with her, he hid it from you. He most likely denied it to himself--"We're just friends." As they got closer, and started crossing lines, he either had to admit to himself that he was being an asshole or blame someone else for his behavior. If he were a stable, decent man, he would have said, "Horsegirl, you have been an awesome wife and partner and you're my best friend. There is something deeply wrong with me because I am cheating on you. I need serious help to figure out why I would do something so hurtful, selfish and stupid."

But people who will cheat on the spouse that they've promised to honor and cherish are not emotionally healthy. They are weak and immature. They are capable of all kinds of tricks: denying reality, justifying whatever they want, shifting blame to other people, and escaping from their responsibilities. In my experience, H learned those tricks from his parents. To this day, his mom insists that his dad was not an alcoholic (the man would regularly drink a fifth and H dragged his passed-out body in off the lawn every night as a kid).

Even if you had seen signs of the affair, you wouldn't have been able to stop your WH. You can't control another person. He was going to fuck up his life because something is broken in him. You might have seen signs of this brokenness, but some waywards are masters of disguise and appear whole and healthy.

He's using the anger to push you away so he doesn't have to face what he's doing. He can't access his empathy for you right now or he would implode with pain. (This is assuming that he was fully capable of empathy before the A.) So he's not really hearing you or seeing you--he's blocked the real you out and replace her with some fictional scapegoat wife. The fact that he can basically deny the existence of the person who he is most intimate with in this world is disturbing to say the least.

It is great that you are in counseling. Remember that he did not have an affair because he wasn't in love with you. That's bullshit. He had an affair because he has poor boundaries, low self-worth and little ability to evaluate his actions honestly. Either that or he's got a personality disorder or a mental illness.

just be glad you didn't have children with him.

Consider yourself lucky that you still have lots of future and opportunities to move forward with your life. You may not realize it now but you dodged a bullit here.

take control of "YOUR" life and make this just a learning experience.. now you are older and wiser. You are now in a position to look at relationships with more insight.

..as Uncle Si just said on Duck Dynasty: "Hey Jack, you can't fix stupid!"

take good care of you! leave this 'boy' in your dust!

smy

I had to go outpatient at a counseling center for 2 weeks because it overwhelmed me. I learned that there were several women in my group for the same reason!!!! OMG!!! Our spouses basically walked out on children, friends, families, and didn't see anything wrong with that!!! OMG!

Please get everything you can in your D -- he will probably give you alot. Get what you can because this is reality. Once he wakes up from the affair you can do something different, but if he has no consequences for this affair, what's to stop him from doing the same thing to you again or the next wife?

((((horsegirl))))

They said, a normal person would have said,"I'm not happy, let's go to a counselor to see IF our marriage can be saved." THen, after 6 months of trying to save the marriage, they would have divorced us.. THEN, they would give themselves 6 months to separate one relationship from the other.
THEN, they would look for someone new.

Our spouses began dating WHILE THEY WERE STILL MARRIED! No normal person does this.

It is not your fault. You cannot control him, you can't "cure" him, because you didn't "cause" this......

Be wary and protect your rights, see a lawyer to find out just what your rights are...It is bad enough that you were blindsided emotionally..
The sudden nature of what your WH did stinks and I am suspicious that there may have been some foul play on his part with the marital assets or maybe the OW is pregnant..

I would definitely get tested for STD's.

Don't let people judge you...

People will be judgmental because they are scared that the very same thing can happen to them and turn their lives upside down..

Any body can be blindsided, many liars are very very good at what they do namely lie...

Your WH's behavior is not your fault and there was nothing you could have done to prevent this..

Don't try to analyze this right now. You cannot analyze stupid.

Protect yourself first. Take care of yourself. One day, one minute at a time.

Do they always deny the affair? I guess that is why I wasn't sure if it was an affair because both of them deny it. Ow boyfriend seems to have his head in the sand and thinks they are just friends..,,right. My hubby is active duty military so I did tell his higher ups but I don't have proof or a confession. Harder when they live together,

I just know they go everywhere together, text each other all day and he was seen driving her car with her. I don't consider that normal friend behavior. He can't be too public about it because military would frown upon it.

I found it odd that he told me on a Saturday, then good sex and promise of counseling on Sunday to coming home on my birthday and leaving me. A normal guy who has just been unhappy doesnt do that on your birthday.

He also went straight to divorce. No wanting to work on things. I got comments like you had your chances, it shouldn't have taken me leaving for you to be a better partner, I was suffering, I did everything for you, this is about me, I don't love you, I haven't loved you, I don't like you, you were a bad wife, yOu didn't emotionally support me, you controlled me, I did talk to you, you did know we had problems, etc.

He said he let things build until he began to hate me but wouldn't I have sensed that? We still were spending all our time together and having sex. He was acting normal. We had went to the beach with this couple and other places. All seemed normal.

Normally he is the nicest most caring person. He always cared and went out of his way to do anything for me. Maybe he did just resent that? I never asked he just did things for me because I thought he cared. Last I saw him (he had to fix a pipe) he was so cold and wouldn't let me touch him and would barely look at me. When I asked why we couldn't work on the marriage he said because he didn't like me as a person and my personality isn't what he wanted, everything about me turned him off. So crazy.

Up until he left we ran our horse business in addition to our regular jobs and were doing great. I have good reputation, am respected and well liked. Why all of a sudden just hate me? Maybe he always hated me.

What your WH is doing is emotional abuse. Get mad, go completely NC, and think about posting in separation/divorce. There are other posters there whose spouse "poofed" (disappeared to live with AP) and who denied the affair (cowardly liars).

So, either he was lying and faking it and he used you this whole time - or he is messed up in the head. Okay - either way is messed up!!! And either way the problem is him!! And either way - he is showing you who he is! (right now at least).

So you controlled him and made all the decisions...? And those decisions worked out quite well! Might be interesting to see what he can manage on his own - eh? Oh wait his decision is to run away with someone else's gf. Look, I don't care if you were the worst wife on the planet - you don't treat even her this way, (nor do you go off on vacation with her first) unless you are one selfish ass.

I agree with ALL the others. He is using anything you say to blameshift, twist and shape his internal narrative to support this shitty behavior. So go dark!! Say nothing!! Call a plumber and deduct the business expense! He'll do one of two things: he may well keep lying and running, or he may stop and pull his head out of his ass. Don't hold your breath though...

But know this: given his current path any contact with you he will use (even your pain) to justify his actions. Reread the responses you've gotten, say nothing to him at all. You can not reason with crazy.

And back to logic for a sec... you don't leave am "active" M for a platonic friendship! Utter bs - this was a PA (I'd bet the farm on it!!!)