On Dday my WH set out to change and has worked daily for the past 3+ years to be a better H, father, human being.
During those early days nothing he did mattered to me, in my eyes he was an asshole..Period.
Entering the 2nd year I did not always view him as an asshole. He was proving to me that he could change, his actions were allowing me to see him as a human being and not a thoughtless monster.
Entering year 3 I no longer view him as an asshole. I am in a better place today. Our M is stronger and I am happier but it took a long, long time and a HUGE effort on the part of WH.
Do you ever really trust a romantic partner again?
I would never trust my WH 100%...only a fool would trust an adulterer 100%.
Will a small part of you always be broken?
He hurt me terribly but he never broke me. I do believe that a small part of me will always be deeply sad over the destruction my WH inflicted on my M/life.
I used to be one to go all out to make the one I'm with feel special and appreciated, will I ever not be afraid to show affection in that way again?
For now I would suggest you leave that task up to your WH. Your heart still need mending. Let him continue to make YOU feel special and appreciate.
My Wh told me, just days after Dday, that he would spend the rest of his life trying to make me happy again ~ I expect him to.
Don't give up, you can still be great together.
ME: 54 BS
HIM: 61 WH
Married: 28 years
in R 3.5 years and it's working but he is putting 200% into it (as he should) to make it right again.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.