..just to say that I hear you and know exactly what you are feeling.
..my fWW has told me that she often feels that the mere sight of her is my biggest trigger.
..we see them now thru different eyes, they are no longer up on that pedistal and we must either accept them or leave them
..I have 'chosen' to stay for all of my own reasons. You must make that same determiation but the 'choice' still remains yours and yours alone!
..the knife she used has beenpulled out and the bleeding has stopped, ..but the knife my bf used is still in my back.
..most here will tell you that it takes a lot of time to heal these wounds.. at 4.5 years out, I tend to agree. Lots and lots of time!