Today is my 12th wedding anniversary. Unfortunately it is the first one since the shit hit the fan so instead of it being a celebration of our love and marriage it is a somber day. I gave her a small sentimental type present along with a card with a short bit written in it from my heart. It was received OK and she thanked me. I told her I loved her and kissed her on the top of her head. She said nothing and now the day is like any other day around here lately.
Just feeling down and out knowing my selfish decisions created all of this. The silver lining is it just makes me want to work that much harder to make sure this is the last anniversary ever spent like this.