JJ is right, you have 40,000 behind you, concerned about you, and sending good mojo toward you.
I am divorced from a pathological disorder too. And, one thing I learned in Alanon is:
One day at a time and don't buy trouble.
Enjoy today, as it is all you have. I know that is easier said then done. But those alanon sayings helped me when I would spin off into worry or obsessive thoughts. I hope they help you too.
I am sorry he is such a jerkwad to you. Merry Christmas!!