I had mixed feelings at the possibility of seeing him. I know that for my own personal growth and the sake of the relationship I need to have NC with him. On the other hand he was my first true friend. We had been friends since grade school.
Thankfully he wasn't there. I don't want to see him, because I am starting to make progress in moving forward from the old life that I used to live. But at the same time I miss having the one person that knows everything about me.
[This message edited by Unagie at 6:32 PM, December 21st (Saturday)]
No longer together
Do not let others be your reference for who you see in the mirror.
Stop allowing people to hurt you, because you don't love you enough to walk away.
The sad part is, my "closest" friend in the group ended up being no friend at all. I had begun to realize it before d-day, but it's amazing how a personal crisis and a request for space will bring out the best or the worst in the people around you. I'm proud of myself for putting in an appropriate boundary with her, and them, I'm just sad I didn't do it sooner.
Appalled by my actions, and the choice to set off several atomic bombs in my life.