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User Topic: D-Day Antiversary
mrcpu
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Default  Posted: 4:03 PM, December 22nd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Doing some prep for Christmas and it just hit me that around 10 pm tonight will be exactly 1 year since I finally got a hold of her unlocked cell phone and found the texts proving she had been in his bed a few days before.

I kind of wish I hadn't realized the date as today was going quite nicely.

A year ago I was sitting having drinks with the OM and my WW in my living room when she drunkenly left her phone on the table and I took it to the bathroom. I came out of the washroom and told him it was time for him to go home and then I waited until she passed out and used her phone to get into her gmail account where I found 400+ email messages, some were between him and her but mostly she was emailing herself like a diary. She sent screen shots of her sexy texts and facebook messages and annotated them quite nicely for me.

I confronted her and at first she denied but that only lasted a couple of hours while I went for a walk. When I got back she confessed to everything and my world went into a complete tail spin. She was going to leave and go to her mothers and I told her there was no way she was ruining the kids Chritmas. This lead us to spend a lot of time together locked in our bedroom talking, and eventually being intimate.

Over the next couple of months I made the "mistake" of trying to see if there was still a chance I could be friends with the OM (We have known each other for over 30 years) but after a couple of months realized that this was a stupid idea.

My WW and I have made a lot of progress and have thankfully become closer. I still have my trigger moments and sometimes feel a lot of anger toward her. I suffered depression which I firmly believe led to my being "laid off" from my job...but I found a new one that I start next year!

As for him, I am quite happy HATING his guts. People say that hate will eat you up and forgiveness will liberate you but I say that letting myself feel true hate for him was directly related to my regaining and building on my own self respect.

It may seem symbolic but it feels like, once 2014 begins I will be able to write 2013 off and move forward with this in the past. It will always be part of our marriage story, as are all the other good and bad things that have happened in our lives but hopefully we will look back on this at some point with nothing more than melancholy.

As for the OM, my only wish is to find out that he was killed in a car accident or died of a heart attach so I can go piss on his grave and there will finally be closure.


D-Day 1: 22 Dec 2012
D-Day 2: 22 July 2014 (unconfirmed)
Me: 40's WW: 40's Together 15 years
1st OM: ex-"Best Friend" of 30+ years
2nd OM: ?!? Currently auditing to confirm.

Posts: 209 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Toronto
brkn_heartd
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Default  Posted: 5:02 PM, December 22nd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Support is being sent to you today. Dday's are hard. Has your FWW realized it is today? If not, are you going to say something to her? It is nice that it was a sudden realization and you hadn't been stewing on it up till the day. That indicates some healing is taking place!

Be kind to yourself today. Do something just for you...whether it is reading a book, watching a TV show/game, gaming, long shower, etc.


Me-50 BS
Him 57-WS
Married 30 yrs, together 33
Affair Aug-Dec 09
official D-12/14/09
broke NC 1/31/10
second D 3/19/10

Posts: 1531 | Registered: Dec 2010 | From: Northwesten US
Skan
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Default  Posted: 7:02 PM, December 22nd (Sunday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I hear you. I cant wait until 2013 is behind us. I thought that I could never hate a year more than 2012, but 2013 brought it's own particular hideousness.

And should your fantasy come to pass, I'll hold your coat while you're dancing!


Imagine a ship trying to set sail while towing an anchor. Cutting free is not a gift to the anchor. You must release that burden, not because the anchor is worthy, but because the ship is.

D-Day, June 10, 2012



Posts: 4551 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: So California
mrcpu
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Member # 38157
Default  Posted: 5:28 PM, December 27th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

My WW didn't specifically say anything about the day, but a couple days later she told me how horribly ashamed she feels for what she did and the pain she caused me. I hate to say that it made me happy to see her sad... not that I want her to be sad, but it means she is remorseful.


D-Day 1: 22 Dec 2012
D-Day 2: 22 July 2014 (unconfirmed)
Me: 40's WW: 40's Together 15 years
1st OM: ex-"Best Friend" of 30+ years
2nd OM: ?!? Currently auditing to confirm.

Posts: 209 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Toronto
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