This just really suck's!!!! I hate to ask what gonna crash down on me next. The last 3 days every time I even think that, I get more crap I don't want to deal with dumped on me.....
I REALLY HATE THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!
D-Day, June 10, 2012
I am sorry, it does suck. The first year is full of shitty WTF moments, I hear you. I remember the pain and I am sorry you are going through it.
Unfortunately the only thing you can do is go through it. Do you have anyone IRL that knows what is going on that you can lean on for support? A friend, your sister?
If you do, go to them and share your pain. They wouldn't want you hurting alone.
If you don't, kick up your feet and hang with us. Bitch, yell. stomp your feet, cry...whatever you need.
We are here and we are right there with you...
(((hugs))) It WILL get better, it seems so far away, but it will. One day at a time.
I hate to ask what gonna crash down on me next.
yeah..... Don't do this! I am convinced it is viewed as a request by the universe.
And NO is a perfectly good word. Sit at home and do what you will.
Now they said I need to get out, so they are once again dragging me out. Unfortunately they are probably right. As much as I hate to admit it I haven't left the house since last Tuesday and I only remember getting dressed yesterday....This just SUCKS....
Be gentle with yourself, it takes time.