Thank you again fellow si-ers, you are all amazing people.
Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it.
I am making it a point to branch out to my single friends more now. I'm also trying to pick up old hobbies that dropped off when I got married, and I'm sure I'll develop friendships there too. I'm also working out more. Basically, I'm DOING whatever I can find to occupy my time. When I catch myself feeling sorry for myself, I do something. It seems to help. You have to learn to find joy in the smallest of things.
The only time I've felt bad about it at all was this past Thursday when I talked with the WW (made the mistake of answering the phone). I had gone to a married friend's 30th b-day party 2 weeks ago. WW said she was not going, but when I spoke with her she told me that she did go. The guys and I were all in the basement playing cards and the girls stayed upstairs (everyone else's W made an appearance downstairs). I felt like a dumb ass because I was the only one there that night that didn't know she came. You would think she would of at least come down and said hello (but she did lie because she said she wasn't going). That's the worst I've felt in a long time.
Brokenfairy, you are so young, you have so much time left. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Things will get better, it is just going to take a lot of time. Hang in there.