He doesn't know this girl at all.
Preach it sister.
Its OK to mourn even thought it is confusing to mourn what never was. I was pining for the man I thought I married long before DD. I was so unbelievably sad.
Post DD I told him I was sad that our M died a quiet death well before I found out he was fucking every willing whore he could find. He didn't understand this at all.
You're going to be OK, PL. More than OK.