Just spent a week with my BS and kids in FL, we returned Sunday. Great time, really connected with her and had awesome family time with the kids. We even slept in the same bed (We are currently separated)
During the trip, she said she was worried about the adjustment when we got back. She was right, much harder than I was hoping it would be.
On vacation there's no work, school, reminders, etc. She was so very insightful to point it out.
It's like the closer you get and the more you heal the bond, the more painful it gets. We both saw what we have, what it can be. It makes her angry and me so terribly sad about what I did to us.
She said on the trip she can see this will make us so much stronger, and she's trying to make peace with it despite the pain it caused her.
I truly feel we will reconcile as long as I keep at my work and have patience for her. That being the case, why do I feel so much misery? The hope has been alot darker for me before, but I kept it together and never gave up. I don't get it...
Looking forward to MC tomorrow, I'm the talker.