So hereís whatís happened. After the initial 6 week breaking in period, I started to feel anxious, then real anxiety. I thought it was triggered by a somewhat stressful incident and anxiety is one of the side effects of this AD. So I look a lower dose for a while and the anxiety got better. But know that the AD is fully kicked in, I find that Iím feeling much better, more engaged, but also some of the stress I was feeling post DD and Iím sort of back to square one.
So Iím thinking the low order depression was me just getting into a numb state after DD as a coping mechanism. I thought I was dealing, and I was, but not fully and not deeply. Now that the AD if clearing the numbness, not only am I feeling better, but Iím feeling everything more, including some of the unresolved DD crap.
This has turned into a real benefit. Post DD, my FWW didnít get the concept of an EA and was just going through the motions of recovery to make me feel better. I a vague way she knew what she was doing was wrong but she didnít understand why it hurt me so much. My fWW is in a better place to talk about things now. And I donít have to deal with her foggy thinking because now, years later, she understands how broken she was that my pain was real.
Has anyone else had a similar reaction?
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not only am I feeling better, but Iím feeling everything more,
Do you have any history of bipolar (manic depression) disorder in your family? If so, you should probably not be on an antidepressant.
If you start to feel like superman, see your doc immediately.
My H is on ADs and it seems to be the opposite - especially with anger and frustration.
Where as before he would blow his top over the smallest thing, he is now able to have an event appropriate response and remain calm and talk to me when we are having a disagreement.
Are you feeling sadness more? Happiness? Which feelings?
The AD is called Wellbutrin. Its apparently one that enhances positive neurochemical receptors rather than suppressing negative neuro chemicals. Or something like that. .
[This message edited by Twitchy at 12:09 PM, January 10th (Friday)]
So if you are feeling that anxious either you are actually bipolar or your med is not the right one for you.
Please go see your doctor. SSRIs (Prozac, celexa, Zoloft, lexapro, Paxil) do not cause anxiety.
Twitchy stated that he is taking Wellbutrin, which is not an SSRI or an SNRI.
D-Day was April 2012. Divorced Jul 2013. Moved ~1000 miles away (as the crow flies) Jul 2014.
Please do talk to your doctor. There are so many other options out there for you to consider. In the end, Celexa was a better fit for me. You have choices. If it isn't working for you, let your doctor know. In my case I chose a psychiatrist as opposed to a GP.
[This message edited by lost_in_space at 12:19 AM, January 11th (Saturday)]
Last DDay: 7/15/09
Dday again: 3/10/2011
All Done: Better late then never.
Its the lifting of the fog effect I was wondering about and if anyone else experience it.