Looks like we are both sleepless tonight. Some more interesting events occur early. My WW family decided they would show up for a surprise visit. They no nothing about her A. Although they maybe suspecting something is going on. I did not attend any of there holiday functions this year. Together almost 10 years haven't missed one before the A.
Anyhow back to the story at hand, they call WW say we will be there in 5mins. WW comes into my little retreat AKA master bedroom and tells me. I responded with no problem but I will be leaving. She got annoyed with this and said they will only be here for a couple of mins. I told her I can not fake this marriage and I would not be rude by hiding in my room.
I should have continued with If you choose to confess to them I am more than willing to stay. Never thought to say that earlier. DAMN IT!!!
WW has not come clean to them she continues to tell them lies about where I am. ( they probably think im a dick by now)
I came home about an hour and a half after they left. Go straight to my retreat and jump on SI,( FYI I am practicing the 180) WW comes in to get something and is so PISSED that I am still ignoring her, she pauses, staring at me but I ignore it and keep reading posts. WW takes a deep breath and storms out and is in the process of slamming the door but somehow gains self control and stops.
Not sure why, maybe she knows I would not even acknowledge it.
Maybe she realises that I will not be the one to chase her anymore to resolves matters. I was always the one to initiate communication when we were at odds with each other, even when she was in the wrong.
NO MORE, im done chasing her and solving all our problems. The foundation that was this marriage ( ME) is being pulled from under it.
Oh believe me I know im not perfect and that I somehow some way contributed to the demise of our marriage. But the time to talk about these things and resolve them was before the A.The saddest thing about betrayal is it never comes from your enemies
If your searching for that one person that will change your life, look in the mirror.