For being just a few months out, you are doing well. I was still in the fog and in such deep pain, I didn't think I'd ever get through it. It took me about 10 months before I started to feel like I was coming out of it. I can't say that I felt like myself, because I am not the same person I was before. And that is sad.
I remember the first time I laughed, really had a good belly laugh. I started to cry because I didn't think I'd ever smile again, let alone laugh.
I am so grateful for the healing I have had over the past 13 months. I am so grateful to friends and family for being there for me. I am so grateful that there is an inner core of strength within that carried me through each painful moment.
I still have my moments and I will never understand why he chose to cheat on me, outside of the fact that it has to do with him. I will never understand why he threw away the love and life we had together.
I have honesty and integrity in my house now. I have healing and peace in my house now. I have respect in my house now. And I have the freedom to pursue my happiness. That is my reality now.