I need to get her out of my head--she doesn't deserve the space.
My DDay was just a couple of days before yours and I have the same thoughts! Feeling that I could not discuss it would have set me back tremendously and I haven't even had to face the OW...I would imagine that being incredibly traumatic.
You should not feel you are alone during this. Have you discussed it since returning from your trip?
Or maybe, 'I'm in a lot of pain over ow. I'm just going to let myself feel it and let it go.'
Yeah, I think self-talk is like magic. If you don't, forget I wrote this.