She was (is?) The love of my life, and it didn't matter, I did everything perfect and its hard to keep going. I truley don't know where to start.
You have come to the right place. You will find a lot of great information and support from all the wonderful members who have gone down the same path.
Take some time to read and ask questions.
Anyway, I sometimes wonder if "just found" out is really correct, or perhaps, it should be still dealing with affair? On SI I don't know where to go after "just found out"??? Seems there is nothing to move on too until you are done dealing with affair.
"Just found out" is, sure all would agree, is worse stage because of intense emotional turmoil. But if affair is ongoing or if BS is still dealing with "just found out" emotional strain, then this feels the right spot. I mean, you still have same emotional strain eaven if you have become more numb to it. Anyways, welcome!
And if anyone else can definitively answers this, or where is better to post after "just found out" I would appreciate it as I'm hesitant to post here anymore since I've been dealing with @!!! for over a year and feel I shouldn't respond to others when I'm still dealing with much the same issues!
I hope you find it to be helpful to you too.