Chances are, it will haunt your BH much longer than you. If you do the work necessary, it doesn't have to haunt you. It becomes a part of your history. Something that you have learned from, become stronger from.
Hmm, my thinking was that it will haunt me because I know it will always be in the back of his mind.
This actually really scares me that I will ever become content?, accepting? (not sure of the right word here) of what I did to the point that I will consider it something I learned/grew stronger from.
What do you think caused you to be impulsive and careless? What frame of mind were you in at the time?
I'm dying to get into IC this week because I really feel like I need someone else to guide me through this. We had to reschedule for tomorrow, and I'm just having a terrible day today which is why I'm rambling on about it here. I think I'll make a list of these things, it may help me feel a little bit more in control for now at least.