I am so sorry that you had to return to us.
Please know that the pain he has caused you has nothing to do with you or the person you are. His inability to say the things you want or wish he could have said before continuing to lie are also because he is a very sad broken man.
He tells you he loves you because he is afraid. He does not understand what real love is. He is just starting to realize the damage he has caused, and don't you dare accept him back until his actions show you that he is doing the work to heal himself.
You are still young, and your are such a brave warrior, you deserve so much more. Stand up and be proud in the fact that you gave him the opportunity to make it right, and he failed. Stand up know that you will have a future that can be full and happy.
Go to a lawyer, have him served, and let your girls help you to stay strong. He does not deserve your love.
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