When I choose to 'Live in The Moment' I think I can be truly happy.
If I think of the past I feel sad. I remember the innocence and trust now lost. I recall the betrayal and feelings of abandonment.
If I think of the future I feel it is tainted. We are still together so I have difficulty envisioning a future without taking stock of the past. For example a 30 year wedding anniversary will always be corrected in my head with "Oh yeah except for those years when..." I just can't seem to create a future without that element of sadness and regret.
So my question is - Is there anything wrong with just being? Is it even possible long term? Is it just glorified rugsweeping and am I heading for a fall?