Now we are in MC, and I am upset and full of anxiety about the money that its costing, and yes, ANGRY again that we have to spend so much money because he went and had an affair. Although, if I'm being honest with myself, we probably needed MC years before this happened.
He's sick with a cold and can't think straight and doesn't have the energy to "talk it out" with me right now. I have the feeling there will be a lot of crying today.
Now, is there a way you can explain to him that you DO find him attractive, and want him on an "intellectual" or "emotional" level, but just can't muster up the physical drive sometimes (don't know your reasons for low libido, but I'm guessing you're not against the idea of sex, just have difficulty getting physically worked up for it? Sorry to sound all TMI 3-rd degree on you...) Maybe he needs some self-esteem reassurance, too...I know that is so hard to focus on for the BS, sometimes, but maybe it would help him to be more empathetic to your feelings?
You may want to delve into whether or not you have ALWAYS had low libido from the time you were sexually active..
Or is this an issue between you and your H..If it is an issue between you and WH is it recent or long term?
Do you feel like your health has anything to do with low libido or is it feelings of resentment towards your WH for whatever reason..
I know that my WH felt entitled to sex with me ANYTIME he wanted it..He had the attitude that sex anytime he wanted it was his right because we were married..As if I was an object he owned instead of a human being with feelings that need to be respected..And he did nothing to arrange childcare or date nights..
So you can see what I mean about harboring resentment that is harmful to the relationship and a sex life..If your WH wants to work on issues to make married and family life easier for you than MC might help..
If he is an asshat in general and doesn't want to do the above, than no wonder you have a low libido..In this case it might be useful to do the 180 and formulate an exit plan..
Oh BTW, your WH needs to know that the fact that he had an A added a new layer of damage to your relationship and motivation to work on things..This damage may take years to repair or be irreparable..
[This message edited by doggiediva at 4:08 PM, February 8th (Saturday)]
I finally got health insurance again, so I had a talk with the ob/gyn, and she says it is probably not health-related and is more likely relationship issues.
He's being a good, remorseful FWS, but I am worried about the new damage being insurmountable. It certainly feels that way right now.
Just a thought...
Also the Love Languages book, if you haven't read it yet (which I admit, I haven't, but we did buy it )
Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something.
It sounds like you aren't getting your needs met, and also like you and your husband have very different needs, which makes things challenging.
I have similar anger issues as you, for similar reasons. When it comes to matters of libido differences, I highly recommend the book The Sex-Starved Marriage. I wish I'd read it sooner. It talks about how to deal with mis-matches in libidos, and also why they occur (and how they are totally normal, for many couples)..
(Also, I wish I got a kick-back for recommending that book, lol-I'd be rich by now!)