The OM is single.
She's well aware there's a 0 tolerance at the moment. She knows I'm on the fence and struggling daily with this. She's told me to wait and see how our "separation" goes. But I also told her, if anything remotely comes close to happening, I'm gone.
I really don't want to lead her on either. I can't believe I'm thinking this way, but I don't think it's fair for her if I know I don't want to make it work for what she's done.
But at the same time, she feels so right to me. I don't know. I don't trust her. I don't trust my judgment of her.
As you stated, I guess I just have to see what her actions are.