badchoice - I sit here two years later, depressed, not knowing what to do with myself, separated on the path to D. ... and i get really triggered reading and getting bogged down in various threads over in D/S. ... Not really a question, but want to get it off my chest.
I can understand your need to step away from SI at times, not only because your IRL world is squeezing the time and energy equation but also for the fact that at times, SI can sometimes be just a very downer place to hang out at.
I've stepped away from SI a couple of times during my six years here, and so have others. At times, stepping away from our online support community can be very therapeutic in of itself. Too many triggers, too much heartache, too much pain and not enough good news. In particular, even when I am here, there are times when I force myself to stay away from General and JFO. It hurts to read and experience their pain and at times the shame of being a WS is too strong and I have to turn away.
When I read your description of being "bogged down" over reading various threads in D/S forum, I wonder if this is happening to you.
I can see by your post history that your not posting in D/S but reading only, so I have to ask, why read there? Is your spouse here and posting? Or are you just trying to make sense of the whole divorce thing by lurking and reading?
IMHO, if reading the posts are not helpful and supportive and in fact, they may be the source of your depression and moodiness, then maybe, you need to make the very conscious decision not to read the D/S forum. Continue to post on the Wayward side if you want to but abstain or limit your time in D.S forum.
Good luck brother,