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I would've loved her my whole life. Why did she have to cheat on me? Why doesn't she want to reconcile? How can she seem to be taking this so well? Why does it have to hurt so much?

Sorry my daughter just FaceTime to me and I ended up seeing my wife she looks so beautiful. Why can't i stop crying? I'm a good man. I just don't understand.

((((((hugs)))))) I'm so very sorry you are hurting today, honey. You can't stop crying because you are a human with feelings. You can't understand because you ARE a good man. And a rational, logical one. You can't reason through this stuff, because it isn't rational. She's taking it so well because she's miles ahead of you on detaching. She detached before she cheated, she just didn't bother to let you know.

Hang in there, hon. Keep breathing.

We know honey, we know

(((((((Hugs))))))

What NIK said. She may look beautiful bit she is as ugly as they come on the inside.

A black ugly soul.

Allow yourself to grieve but don't let it take over your whole life.

JIPT,

Some questions have no answer.

Trying to make sense of nonsense leads nowhere, except perhaps to madness.

Acceptance is difficult. It is all there is for now.

I agree with what everyone else is saying. Just keep breathing and hang on. You ARE going to be okay. (((hugs)))

You have friends here, we may not know each other but we know your pain, you have to keep moving forward, think of your kids, they will make you strong, regardless of how you feel they need their dad, you can do it and we have your back, all of us.

Yes, what NIK said. You are in the darkest days. I too would FaceTime my children when she left and I would see the face of the most beautiful woman in the world--my wife, the one who would never, ever hurt or abandon me. And the pain was unbearable. Surely, I thought, it would never end. But it gets better, Just. It does. Weep, wail, grieve. And then keep going.

How can she seem to be taking this so well?

I hate to say this, but taking this so well sounds like she is having an affair with someone, EA at the least.

An affair with someone keeps her living in a fantasy world. It is a lot like someone who is drunk all of the time and the world is going along just fine. When actually, they are an alcoholic about to lose their job and everything else.

A fantasy world.

Your wife sounds like she has a chip on her shoulder and nothing is wrong. And that could be an attitude she is getting from some kind of false hope.

False hope from someone else.

You need to stay strong at this time. Realizing what she has turned into is going to take all of your strength.

Craig that is a concern. She says there are no men but her FB page shows friends that i tracked back to flirtations on Instagram. I think she is still playing her games. My WW is a day to day person. R would require too much work. D seems easy. Rough coming to terms with the alien abducted person before me.

((just)) You will get through this!!! One day at a time......allow yourself to grieve your loss.

We are all here for you! Keep posting.

We are here for you...even us newbies. We can all cry together. I'm sorry you're going through this.

There is someone else. I'm living it too. Some days I laugh others I can't seem to cry, but I'm sad and humiliated. When there are kids involved, it makes it worse as you have to interact and hear about the other person. I didn't sign up for this but it is my reality. Beautiful?? Yeah outwardly charming and gorgeous I'm sure. Once nice and beautiful inside, but now awful, venomous and immature. Grieve, cry, get angry. Forever you will be changed. If she is a good person going through a bad time, pray for the karma she deserves, if she is truly a good person, she will receive good karma, if she is a jerk and cruel inside, she will receive that karma. Either way, you don't need people like this in your life.

She is a day to day person...ok. And her days seem to be filled with nothing but getting on the internet, is that correct?

Does she ever have an opportunity to go out for any reason she might be meeting some guy.

If not, than she is addicted to the internet and other guys attention. I cant imagine that staying on the internet only if she really needs all of this attention.

You say day to day and R is too much trouble. All that points to some addiction. She would rather be divorced than get off of the internet and live a real life.

Day to day, how has she ever looked to the future or made plans? When a WS acts as if they have been abducted, it is almost always because there is someone else. Someone else telling them things and making the WS think live is dandy when it is not.

Oh dear... The might look beautiful on the outside... But that's just wrapping. A truly beautiful person would not hurt the one they love so much.

By not wanting to reconcile (I feel) totally discarded. It's like the life and family we built is worthless. It meant nothing to WS.

I feel for you, JIPT.

It is hard to discarded with such little regard

It is hard to discarded with such little regard

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Yes, it is.

Now what?

The pain is waning egich is nice. The next 6 months during divorce process i have been taking time to establish personal goals around physical fitness and work. Around making all D decisions in the best interest of my children. To be civil with Ww but detach. Last one has been brutal but is progressing. Mentally i am in ic and reading about codependancy and building self esteem. Those r the plans. Anything missing???

personal goals around physical fitness and work

Those are excellent. Keeping your job is of course important and fitness really makes you feel better and there is nothing better for rebuilding your self esteem than working out and seeing the results.

Eat very good food, and light. If you are a heavy meat eater, you might back off and eat a lighter diet. I would also recommend no alcohol, the alcohol and the hangovers are dangerous since they can really make you depressed. It is just better to stay away from alcohol. Alcohol can also cause anger, and that wouldn't be good either. You have enough emotions to deal with without alcohol making them worse.

Yes. No alcohol. I also used to b a smoker and am avoiding that coping mech. Too. I will seek healthy coping skills.