I'm trying so hard to stay strong and move on with my life. After a couple nights of really bad dreams (some sad, some angry, and some of the used-to-be good times), I'm finding it very hard to look at the positive in anything this morning. I sit here in this empty house completely surrounded by our memories and I feel trapped. I have no where to go and I can't change it right now.
I went to an attorney with money I borrowed from my parents as I don't have a dime to spare. I wasn't completely happy with the results and would love to get a second opinion from another one; however, I can't afford it. I want to serve his ass and let him know that I'm not settling for this situation he walked away from and left me in. I know I need to research some other legal options because of my financial situation...
I just don't have the strength this morning. I feel like life has been sucked out of me once again and I have to struggle to find the will to even move from this chair.
It's just so unfair that he gets to be out there, wherever he is, enjoying his newfound "love" with the OW and I'm left with my broken life completely smothering my will to breathe.
I know this will pass, but right now, that moment seems so very far away.