I'm struggling a lot right now in IC. So I'm trying to counteract it by posting about some positive things that have come to pass in my life recently.
First: I went to my first CoDA meeting. It was amazing, and the powerful connective thread of the themes between people really touched me. I cried multiple times while other people were speaking. That first meeting they discussed gratitude, and I was really impressed. My next meeting was powerful in a completely different way. I have so much to learn, and I am no longer feeling so totally isolated. That is something to be truly grateful for.
Second: My BH has made a huge leap in his healing these past couple of weeks. I wish I could say my attitude had helped, but I think it's mostly self healing that has occurred. But he told me that he had finally seen that I had been offered a whole other life, and yet I still chose to stay in this one. He thanked me for giving us a chance to try for R. That's huge, and I'm overwhelmed by it.
It rocks me to my core that he is so gracious. My BH really is one of the most incredible people I know. No, he is the most incredible person I know. For that I am grateful.Me: WW
Him: BH (totalheartbreak)
Appalled by my actions, and the choice to set off several atomic bombs in my life.