But gently, I was wondering is this need for forgiveness at this moment tied into the difficult week you had with Mr. LA last week? To not feel bad, guilty or to fix the situation somehow and put the onus back onto yourself?
Is that a pattern that you used to do? I know I did. If something was uncomfortable, I automatically would have to do something to make it better. Even when I wasn't the one who should have been making amends, I still did in some way, some how.
That is a good question DixieD. My answer is...I don't know if that is where this is coming from but yes, it is something I am accustomed to doing. I try to make everyone feel more comfortable...even with strangers. Anyway, I never would have thought of this on my own so I do appreciate you writing it down.
Incidentally, my H just wrote me a letter in f/up to our last argument about pot smoking. It left me disheartened and angry. Maybe I will write about that next.