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User Topic: Interesting article on forgiveness and surviving infidelity
blakesteele
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Default  Posted: 5:21 AM, April 26th (Saturday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

What I discovered about my wife 14 months ago caused pain beyond anything I could have imagined. Yet somehow I've managed to thrive since then. It's like I woke up from a long funk. It started a couple of months after D Day, once I realized that this is survivable. I became a better father, professional, parishioner, member of the community, and, once my pain started to become manageable, a better husband. I must be giving off a different vibe, because opportunities - social and professional - come my way easily these days. I have less use for meaningless distractions, like TV and social media.

SAL1995.....ah, to catch a ball game with you!

Totally get this.

My journey to what you posted started about 3 months after DD. Upon DD I chose my old coping mechs.....and chose them fast and hard!!! Horribly destructive.....they did what they have always done. They limited and, actually effectively killed any growth potential in me.

IC was key!!!

Once I became aware of their limiting and destructive nature they no longer were palatable. Pain of same was more than the pain of change.....so I started to change.


My wife is changing too.....though she is struggling right now and loses focus at times on how she is changing.....gets frustrated with herself as she still is sad at times....really sad. I do too.


Your closing sentence is a large key for me....one that opened up growth to me. It speaks to humility.

A prideful person is one who is shut down to learning. A humble person is one who is open to learning.

This journey, like most trials, is a humbling one.

Oh......and your lack of interest in TV and social media? I am there too.

Peace brother.

[This message edited by blakesteele at 6:16 AM, April 26th (Saturday)]


ME: 42 BH, I don't PM female members
SHE: 38 EA
Married: 15 years
Together: 17 years
D/Day 9-10-12
NC: 10-25-12
NC: Broken early November 2012, OM not respond
2 girls; 7 and 10
Fear is payments on debts you have not

Posts: 3411 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Central Missouri
peoplepleaser
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Default  Posted: 6:42 AM, April 26th (Saturday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Blakesteel, I love your analytical mind. Every time I see a post or post something introspective I can count on you to comment and make it more rmightening or interesting because of it. No worries about the trauma. It provided great conversation about the differences and seems to have given you an opportunity to discuss it openly with your partner.

Yep. The field of psychology is shifting toward looking at more positive aspects of human behavior, like stress related growth. Stress is a normal variance of what we experience. though overwhelming stress as a result of trauma is not necessary for typical development and growth, it certainly accelerates it and can, if explored and incorporated appropriately, exponentially contribute to positive outcomes.

I've said this before, and I'm almost there with this experience now...I wouldn't go through it again, but I wouldn't take it back because of how I've grown from it. And I'm proud of who I am and what I've realized about or accomplished within myself.


WS: 38--2 EAs
BS: 38--me, faithful
DS: 5
8 year relationship in R.
DDay #1: September 6, 2013 EA for 5 weeks August 2013.
DDay #2: January 2, 2014 EA for 6 weeks summer 2011.
"I am still learning." -Michelangelo

Posts: 512 | Registered: Dec 2013 | From: Midwest
blakesteele
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Default  Posted: 8:09 PM, April 26th (Saturday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You rock peoplepleaser! I feel like your last paragraph states.


I hope you are right about psychology starting to note the positive outcomes of some of the human condition.

I am an optimist at heart...and it is serving me well through this trial.

Peace.


ME: 42 BH, I don't PM female members
SHE: 38 EA
Married: 15 years
Together: 17 years
D/Day 9-10-12
NC: 10-25-12
NC: Broken early November 2012, OM not respond
2 girls; 7 and 10
Fear is payments on debts you have not

Posts: 3411 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Central Missouri
Ascendant
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Default  Posted: 8:52 PM, April 26th (Saturday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Forgiveness, to me, is something that develops organically over time. When people have hurt me in the past, I cannot think of one time ever where I made a conscious decision to 'forgive'.

Forgiveness, to me anyway, occurs at that moment when I realize that the pain that the person has caused me is no longer the first emotion I associate with their name/face/presence/thought. At that moment of realization, I discover that I have forgiven them for whatever their transgression is.

I, like SMS, become concerned when I see BS reading book after book desperately seeking a way to forgive the person who's hurt them so grievously. To me, it's a waste of time...time better spent by the BS on bringing joy and a sense of fulfillment into their own life, not figuring out how to forgive someone. If the WS is putting in the work to fix themselves (and I mean, REALLY putting in the work), and the BS is doing their own healing, I think that the 'forgiveness aspect' will come eventually.

'Grace' or 'forgiveness' cheaply given is a slap in the face of grace and forgiveness hard-earned by people who have committed horrific transgressions and fought like hell to repent. I like this definition of repentance:

Repentance is the remorseful acceptance of responsibility for one's wrongful and harmful actions, the repudiation of the aspects of one's character that generated the actions, the resolve to do one's best to extirpate those aspects of one's, character, and the resolve to atone or make amends for the harm that one has done.
Cheap, easy forgiveness sounds far too much like 'rug sweeping', 'getting over it', and 'getting past it' to hold much water for me.

I totally agree that eventually forgiveness MUST take place in order to successfully reconcile. I'd wager that it's a major stumbling block for many BH even AFTER their WW had done a ton of self-work. I think once the BS reaches that point, it's OK to do all that work on trying to forgive...but to me, it should be a little ways down the road on the timeline.

ETA: Spelling and stuffz.

[This message edited by Ascendant at 9:00 PM, April 26th (Saturday)]


"The thing that always seems to be shocking to wayward wives is the simple fact that the man you choose to reconcile with is not the same man you cheated on." - a friend.

Posts: 1911 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Illinois
rachelc
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Default  Posted: 9:27 PM, April 26th (Saturday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Yep it's never been a choice for me either. Just a look back at the betrayal and thinking, "I understAnd how you got to that point"
And this happened kinda without me knowing it. I know that doesn't make sense.

But appreciating the growth because it happened!?0 Not for a long time.,,,if at all,,,,

[This message edited by rachelc at 7:46 AM, April 27th (Sunday)]


his Ddays: 2/10, 7/11
my Ddays: 1/12, 4/12 broken NC 12/12

me: 48
him: 51
4 kiddos in lower 20's

ôSlide the weight from your shoulders and move forward. You are afraid you might forget, but you never will. You will forgive and remember."


Posts: 4471 | Registered: Dec 2010
tired girl
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Default  Posted: 9:51 PM, April 27th (Sunday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I agree with a lot of what Ascendant said. I also have no problem with finding acceptance of what someone has done to me and not always getting to the forgiveness stage. Sometimes forgiveness doesn't always happen. I do believe it needs to happen in order for a M to continue, but in other relationships, it may not happen.


Me45 Him 45 Hardlessons DS 25,23,20
D Day 1/18/10 his 3/8/2012 mine
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanor Roosevelt

Posts: 4483 | Registered: Mar 2010 | From: az
twisted
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Default  Posted: 9:15 AM, April 28th (Monday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

To me forgiveness, is not automatic, somebody better be demonstrating they want, need and deserve it.
I'm not the religious type, so I just work with reality. I been lied to and cheated on. My WW made a sham of a 25 yr marriage and family I had worked my butt off to make as good as I could.
She does not get a pass.
That scar will be there until I die. I will deal with that.


"Hey, does this rag smell like chloroform to you?

Posts: 893 | Registered: Nov 2005 | From: Oklahoma
Sal1995
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Default  Posted: 11:06 AM, April 28th (Monday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

A prideful person is one who is shut down to learning. A humble person is one who is open to learning.

This journey, like most trials, is a humbling one.

Amen brother. Humbling indeed. Who knows, maybe I needed humbling. Maybe my wife needed to purge generations of recycled family pain and learn healthy coping mechanisms. Maybe this is part of a bigger plan for all of that to happen.

We can't change anything that's happened. Not a single ugly, sordid detail. But for those of us who have somehow managed to grow and thrive post D-Day, we can embrace the positive change. I know this - now that I've seen what a marriage can be, I wouldn't go back to the pre-A marriage. The disconnected, emotionally-distant marriage that was mostly a child-rearing partnership. No thanks.

Our marriage has definitely gotten to the next level. To me, forgiveness is a key part of that. I've had to forgive one catastrophic hurt along with some little ones. My wife has also had to forgive years of little hurts, that eventually added up to cause a lot of resentment.

To me, a marriage is a covenant, a spiritual bond. Maybe others define forgiveness differently than I, but reconciliation without forgiveness is something that doesn't seem possible. I try to picture what that looks like. IMO it looks like a marriage that is still emotionally disconnected and vulnerable to future affairs and divorce. A marriage where one spouse always carries a trump card, while the other always has something hanging over his or her head.


Me-45
WW-42
DDay 2/17/13, 9-10 month PA/EA
Final NC late Feb. '13
M - 18 years, together 19+
4 children

Reconciling


Posts: 1319 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: Texas
numb&dumb
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Default  Posted: 11:36 AM, April 28th (Monday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

When I read the article I just started thinking, here we go again, another article that puts the onus for recovery of the M on the BS. I could just see my W, while in her delusion, coming to me and saying, "look here, if you forgive me then we both can be happy."

Obviously the data is so skewed towards a female gender bias to render it inconclusive. Poorly constructed and conducted study.

If I suffered selective amnesia I could probably achieve the same result.

[This message edited by numb&dumb at 11:37 AM, April 28th (Monday)]


Me-35 her-35

DS 1, DD 6
Dday 8/31/11. ONS that occurred 3 years earlier. Lied to for 3 years.

Every truth comes to light in a long enough timeline.


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