Although revenge has crossed my mind at various times in this process, because the hurt is just so painful sometimes, I know it wouldn't really help with the long term pain, just provide short term relief. I know if revenge still sits in my mind it makes me normal, but it also means I am still holding onto some things that are preventing me from truly moving forward. The revenge that crosses my mind is nothing major, just things like telling people around us abut the WW's A. In ways I wish it could get out there, because then she would experience some pain like what she has inflicted on me.
I was just wondering, for those BS out there that had a WS leave for the OP, did the A eventually get out on its own? I fear sometimes that it will be just seen as a new relationship following the dissolution of our M. This OP in my case is also M, so therefore he is in the process of a D. I can only assume that people will eventually put two and two together. I do worry though that they don't and somehow my reputation somehow gets affected. I am basing this on a stereotype that woman are usually less likely to be at fault for failed M than men. I really shouldn't care, but it is one of those looming thoughts I have.
Anyone have any thoughts on this?
“Optimism is a strategy for making a better future. Because unless you believe that the future can be better, you are unlikely to step up and take responsibility for making it so."
People told me they had heard we separated and how was I doing? So I told them. Most were shocked because they didn't know the truth. He told them that, "We sat down, talked, and decided that we had grown apart and it was time to D". I straightened it out in plain language so there was NO misunderstanding immediately! Most were totally shocked and disbelieving because this didn't fit with the person they had known. I know now that he never was that person. He had been doing it for years! I told them about the porn dating sites he was on, the other awful sites and that he had been trolling Craigslist for casual, anonymous sex for a long time. I figure there's no harm as long as I'm telling the truth.
I'm still telling people almost 3 years out when it's apparent they do not have the facts straight. Even sone people who went to their wedding barely 2 months after the D.
As much as it hurt I felt vindicated when he came out so soon with her - everyone knew what I had been dealing with at that point. He outed himself for the scumbag he is. All of his 'woe is me' crap only works on other cheaters and those who knew he was cheating the whole time. His company is very incestuous - lots of creepy fat old guys with wannabes.
Everyone else is laughing behind his back and calling her a fools gold digger.
Don't keep her secret. It's not your shame to bear. It's not revenge - it's the truth.
I think the main reason we don't want to tell is because we feel humiliated. I get it. This was deeply humiliating to me in the beginning. With time I've unburdened myself of that shame. HE is the one who he has humiliated. I was loyal, faithful and I acted with integrity throughout our relationship. Why on earth would I feel humiliated about that?
I wasn't a fool fooled - I was supposed to be able to trust my husband. He is the fool for betraying that trust, and his own integrity and morals. I had no hand in that.
I told everyone very quickly primarily so as to make R impossible should he decide to try to suck me in. It didn't work immediately but it did work in the end. It was very hard for me to face everyone when trying to R because I couldn't hide the truth. It freed me from being able to lie to myself.
However I doubt she can experience the same pain that you are. Maybe one day via karma; but right now, I think the justification must lay so thick that little gets through to affect her.
I have found honesty is so relieving mentally.
It's not your secret to keep. It's theirs. You don't owe them the silence.
The unremorseful WS's like to put their own spin on the situation, which was why I made damn sure EVERYBODY knew the truth.
Marriages that start this way, stepping over the bodies of loved ones as the giddy couple walks down the aisle, are not likely to last.
I know my WW is going to spin her web, because she knows what she has done. She is also being very amicable right now in our D process. My main focus is to get through that.
People have just started to reach out to us. It won't be too much longer until things start coming out.
Thanks again for the input.
I will agree with the idea that once you disclose to someone, it is cathartic. The people I have told, who are some of the people I care about most know the truth. Once I told them, it felt relieving. I was no longer the person that had to bear the weight of the situation.
My WW's walls are coming down one by one and this is getting real, really fast. Before long everyone will know what is going on and we'll see how much she is happy with her decision. I'm just happy that I have been working hard on myself and gaining from every experience that has been thrown my way. I just want to continue to get stronger through this process.
Thanks again for the support!
The people who don't know you... Who cares what they think. They are strangers on the street who wouldn't know you anyway...
They still blame me for telling everyone.
Your wife is gonna lie about you. And some people will believe those. Can't help what "the masses" thinks. People you care about, you set them straight. Otherwise, try not to worry about people thinking the wrong thing about you. Indifference is what you should feel for people who don't matter, including your ex, and whoever she is currently with.
My ex is with OW, and I wish it was anyone but her, but everyone knows they both ruined their marriage and lost their family and friends for each other. Cuz that's what soulmates do for each other. Whatever. Good luck morons..
Well, I went along with that for a little while, and then, frankly, I just couldn't hold it in any longer. One set of friends asked me point blank if my ex had cheated on me, and I said "yes." Then I started crying, then it just tumbled out, "with men…".
From that point forward, I let the truth out. It wasn't my secret to hide, and I felt horrible hiding it. Now I am very open with what happened (depending on situation, obviously) and make no excuses.
It is pretty obvious now, since he is openly gay and rarely sees his kids.
*shrug* whatever. I got the good end of the deal. I got the kiddos.
"For whatever we lose, like a you or a me, it's always ourselves we find in the sea" ee cummings
Oh, I'm sorry if the truth makes your life difficult.
Because your A certainly made mine difficult...
The sad clown begged me not to tell anyone. What would they think???
They'd know what you are, dude. Not my problem.
I personally don't subscribe to this getting out impacting the kids. IMO they make up their own narratives if they aren't given the truth in an age appropriate way.
They are going to hear stuff and what if they hear lies?
My girls are too small to understand infidelity but they do know Daddy broke important promises to Mummy that husbands and wives aren't allowed to break. My 3.5 y/o put it together herself when she asked me if Daddy's promise was not to kiss Whaura. Prior to this the sad clown had told my girls we couldn't live together as a family because Mummy kissed other men.
Don't put it beyond them to lie to heir own kids.
One day I realized that I didn't care. I'll never see her friends or her family or her coworkers ever again. She's rewritten history, played the victim, taken their sympathy.
I promised her two things: everything would be absolutely fair and honest and her secret was safe with me. I didn't promise that for her, but because I don't care. Carrying that secret is her burden. It it gets out it won't be my fault.