Thursday, I was having a stressful day. I stopped Prozac several months ago, and I think I need to get back on. I am just grumpy and irritable and mean. I wanted to talk to WH about this and he was having a stressful day, and rejected me, "I cant talk, I need to be alone"
Today, I am thinking, "I dont care, he is never there for me when I need him. I want to pull the plug." I have been thinking how I can tell him, lets do this fast...
We went thru divorce (were were in the process for a year and it was almost all done when we halted the process. We were separated for almost 3 years-- 1 year was active, nuclear divorce (multiple court dates, $75,000, psych evals...etc) but two of those years we were going to therapy in the hopes of trying to R. Papers were withdrawn about a year ago, so, legally, we were in active divorce for over 2.5 years.
Im what keeps this family together, and seriously, i dont know if i want to anymore. its freaking EXHAUSTING. I am the only parent. Its like I have 3 kids.
If I read you correctly, you're selling yourself pretty cheaply. You're worth a lot more than a few words and a gift. If I read you correctly, and I hope I'm not.
[This message edited by sisoon at 9:42 AM, May 2nd (Friday)]
you're selling yourself pretty cheaply. You're worth a lot more than a few words and a gift.
i think you are spot on. and its really sad. i agree, and i know im worth more. (and by Im worth more i mean I am worth a true, emotional relationship.)
I do disagree that this is H's normal behavior. I dont really know if he has normal behavior. i think hes just scraping to make it through the day. i think he has problems that are way out of my league,
[This message edited by Gottagetthrough at 10:25 AM, May 2nd (Friday)]
Gently, what have you done to make the relationship into what you want? What's worked? What hasn't? How has your H responded well? Poorly?
Do you have requirements that are deal breakers?
You can control only you. Unfortunately, that means you're the one who has to act if you want changes in your relationship. Not fair, not esay - but....
update-- yesterday he came home and apologized (with no urging from me). we talked and i think we need to put family first more often. right now its last!
also, i think we need a MC session soon.
thank you for listening, everyone