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User Topic: Bad memory with recent flashbacks
LostinNH
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Default  Posted: 9:02 AM, May 15th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Not only what I did was horrible....damaging to the man I love and want to share my life with, but my ability to remember just WTF happened is beyond me. I get little "snapshots", usually in my sleep, wake up feeling like crap and deciding to overcome the loathe some, feel-bad-about-myself, selfish shit and try to make the day a good one. Major life events recently; loss of his job and transition to move cross country, serious car accident (me), immediately followed by moving then unexpected loss of my job. I'm feeling scared. Sad. Anxious. Worthless. And like a failure in many ways.

I'm BiPolar and take mood stabilizers + anxiety meds. In the "queue" for new psych appt which could take 8-10 weeks, ugh.

We have a teenage son and I am failing him miserably. My husband is unhappy thankfully, our girls are living away (college) and don't see the hole we are falling into...


Shouldn't running in a circle bring you back to the beginning where you started?

Posts: 11 | Registered: May 2014
sisoon
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Default  Posted: 10:17 AM, May 15th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Is this the way you are normally, or do you think you're under extra stress now? Could extra stress be causing your inability to comprehend what you've done? Any new meds?

If it's extra stress, perhaps you'll get control when the stress diminishes or you get more used to it.

Are you aware of the WS forum? You may get more help there - more people who've been where you are and done what you've done.

Also, BSes can give you 2 X 4s here. On the WS forum you can prevent BSes from chiming in. Your call - do what's best for your healing.


fBH (me) - 70 (22 in my head), fWW (plainsong) - 65+, Married 45+, together since 1965
DDay - 12/2010
Recovered, not yet fully R'ed
I share my own experience because it's the only experience I know, not because I'm a good model.

Posts: 10057 | Registered: Feb 2011 | From: Chicago area
LostinNH
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Default  Posted: 10:50 AM, May 15th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Definitely under extra stress with little to no outlet. Thanks for the advice, will try the WS forum.


Shouldn't running in a circle bring you back to the beginning where you started?

Posts: 11 | Registered: May 2014
jo2love
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Default  Posted: 11:32 AM, May 15th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Please use the existing thread.

http://www.survivinginfidelity.com/forums.asp?tid=531216

Thank you.


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