Topic: Health Scare
Member # 40859
| Posted: 5:04 PM, May 25th (Sunday), 2014|
I dont normally use support boards and I am grateful to have found this one- I do not post to much but I come here often - but a lot triggers me and the last few months have been hard for me being in a shelter and fighting for my kids.
I FINALLY took the time for me. I had a spot on my back calf that was bleeding daily for NO reason - it use to be a regular mole and it would pour blood down my leg.
I went and had a biopsy on it - but the dermatologist was not to happy with how it looked. I get my results back around Wed but damn I am scared. I have had a full hysterectomy at age 32 losing my ovaries and all to cancer. I am now 38 and I am a little freaked out. I looked up pictures of skin cancer and from seeing the spots that ARE cancer they look just like my spot that has bleed daily since easter - sometimes many times a day. I know I took forever to get it looked at - partly because I thought well maybe I picked at it in my sleep but later learned that was not the case.
My doctor scared me. They at least told me if it was to come back positive that it was early enough to treat but it still scares me. I am on my own trying to take care of my kids, trying to work a new job, and now this..... How do you BREATHE and how do you wait and think positive until bad news is delivered? So easier said than done.
I havent really told but one person that I am even going through this. I do not wont to freak out my family. My mom is much much older and is very sick. I jsut would rather leave worry and cause alone - but had to get it out someone so this is my "place" i feel I can say anything.
sometimes I wonder why the fuck me on things...... and I guess this is one of those moments - even though nothing bad yet has been told to me - I just have a feeling :( I dont know why..... maybe because the doctor wasnt reassuring to me - but maybe they cant be until the results really are back.
Sigh......any words of wisdom?? any advice as how to deal? Keep my sanity? .....I am grasping to keep my head above water as it is..... I dont need to add to it..... not with health issues for sure.....
Posts: 111 | Registered: Oct 2013 | From: Georgia
Member # 34262
| Posted: 5:06 PM, May 25th (Sunday), 2014|
Take deep breaths.
Not all skin cancers are deadly. Basal cell and Squamous cell are fairly easy to treat.
Try. Not. To. Panic.
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Posts: 2189 | Registered: Dec 2011 | From: Great Southwest
Member # 10506
| Posted: 5:15 PM, May 25th (Sunday), 2014|
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off
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Posts: 17632 | Registered: Apr 2006 | From: A better place :)
Member # 35812
| Posted: 5:49 PM, May 25th (Sunday), 2014|
Just take it one day at a time. Hard, I know. Had a real scare last year with possible breast cancer. It's hard NOT to think of it, but try really hard, now that you have your doctor's appt., to take it one day at a time. (((hugs)))
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Posts: 4804 | Registered: Jun 2012 | From: So California
Member # 31528
| Posted: 6:52 PM, May 25th (Sunday), 2014|
Sending good thoughts and strength.
Posts: 35192 | Registered: Mar 2011
Member # 12041
| Posted: 8:18 AM, May 26th (Monday), 2014|
((((((teeghan)))))). Waiting for that kind of news is torture isn't it?
Sending mojo that it's something easily treatable.
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Posts: 44704 | Registered: Sep 2006
Member # 38597
| Posted: 8:23 AM, May 26th (Monday), 2014|
No words of wisdom, but I'm going through something similar.
I went to a skin cancer screening clinic last year and was told to call back if a few moles changed. One has suddenly become itchy and sore, so I'm calling the doctor today.
Sending positive mojo you way
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Posts: 713 | Registered: Mar 2013
Member # 16024
| Posted: 8:46 AM, May 26th (Monday), 2014|
I'm sending good thoughts your way.
Take up your space (and do it well).
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Posts: 37591 | Registered: Sep 2007
Member # 11937
| Posted: 9:16 AM, May 26th (Monday), 2014|
Teeghan - I know that waiting for test results is horrible but try to take a few deep breaths and try to not let it tear you up over the next couple days. Making yourself sick with worry isn't going to change the results. Coming here like you did is good - get it out when you need to but then try to let it go (I know easier said than done) but like I said it doesn't change anything - good news and you will have wasted time fretting, bad news and you will still have wasted time fretting which isn't good for your health and recovery.
Posts: 1385 | Registered: Sep 2006
Member # 33226
| Posted: 12:32 PM, May 26th (Monday), 2014|
(((((teeghan))))) I know it's scary, honey. You've been through SO MUCH. I hate that you're facing this on top of everything else.
Waiting is the worst. Keep breathing. Try to focus on the tasks at hand moment by moment.
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Posts: 25343 | Registered: Aug 2011
Member # 33698
| Posted: 1:48 PM, May 26th (Monday), 2014|
Sending you hugs and positive thoughts. I had an abnormal mole removed, and then I had to go to a plastic surgeon to have the whole area excised because they didn't get all of it, so it couldn't be conclusively biopsied.
I was a wreck. I put myself through hell. Please, please don't do that to yourself. I finally got the call that they had gotten all of it, and that there wasn't any melanoma.
You have done what you can-- you had it removed. I know it's easier said than done (I am Queen Worrywart when it comes to health matters), but sometimes I will tell myself that: You've done all you can, and if there's a next step to take, you will take it. There's nothing more to be done right now.
It might help if you tell someone IRL. As much as I value the tremendous support I get here, I often feel better if I can tell someone IRL and talk it out with him/her.
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Posts: 3604 | Registered: Oct 2011
Member # 36134
| Posted: 3:55 PM, May 26th (Monday), 2014|
I'll be keeping you in my prayers.
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Posts: 5081 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Florida
Member # 21101
| Posted: 7:49 AM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014|
I'm going to give you the same advice I used to give my Colon Cancer patients while they were loosing their minds while waiting.
Yes it is scary, and it is upsetting, and with technology we should be able to give you an answer NOW. However the only thing that has changed today from yesterday, is now you know that you have something going on. So now you can take action. Delaying in care or treatment for a few days, a few weeks, and in most cases a few months does not change the outcome. I get wanting it off, and knowing what is next, however know that you will get through this.
My sister has had multiple abnormal, skin cancer spots removed. She is very moley, and she had many that had to be removed, and the surrounding tissue had to go too. She was on a every 6 month schedule to go to the dermatologist to get things removed. Now she goes once a year. She was a fair skinned kid, that burned multiple times every summer. She has had nothing since getting the original stuff removed.
Deep breaths, and trust that you are now doing what needs to be done. Consider it a wake up that it is important for you to take care of you, so you can take care of those wonderful children.
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Posts: 8506 | Registered: Oct 2008 | From: St. Louis
Member # 18522
| Posted: 5:29 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014|
Praying for the best sort of test results.
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Posts: 7813 | Registered: Mar 2008 | From: SoCal
Member # 17637
| Posted: 5:02 PM, June 8th (Sunday), 2014|
Haven't seen you here in a while.
I hope things are going well for you, and you have help for this medical problem.
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