Your WS is still in fantasy land. If I were you, I'd stop MC and work on IC for myself. He doesn't deserve MC. He is not even considering how he's stacked the deck in AP's favor. How can you compete with the unicorns and pixie dust of the A? No spouse can because we represent the real world. Everyone (save for the foggy WS) knows unicorns and pixie dust are not real.
He knows that he is in fantasy land. He knows that he's stacked the deck in AP's favor, and he knows that I can't compete.
He's made his choice. I feel sad for him that it's all going to go down the crap catcher all for a woman that he isn't even especially sexually attracted to. How stupid.
He has absolutely no regard for you or your marriage.
He is still in the affair.
At this time, you need to focus 100% on yourself.
And yes you should kick him out today.
This is horrible abuse what he is doing to you.
I've already arranged to spend tomorrow at a coworker's house and see a friend Sunday night.
I can't believe he's being such a shithead right now. You just don't understand; we were made for each other.
It'll be easier to cope if you don't have to see him all the time.
I cannot see any hope in R, I am truly shattered.
Rather than call your MC, I'd go to my own IC and skip texting H and sharing with him how you're feeling shaky. The only contact should be finances (as I know you don't have kids).
You've been doing well with limiting the convos, and here I have to disagree with everyone about the in-house separation. Not sure if your reasons are monetary or otherwise, but a strong 180 even though sharing a residence DOES have an impact. All those memories of time spent together in various parts of the home versus being holed up in the spare bedroom like a fleabag motel, yeah, that'll make an impact. The smells coming from the kitchen, yeah, that's not your dinner, bub. The hamper getting ripe? Gotta handle it yourself, now that you fired your housekeeper...
It's only been a few days for you, although I know each day feels like a lifetime. I'd keep at it, and make sure you've got more dinners with friends and activities scheduled, too. It does truly help to keep yourself busy.
((NoDoormat)) <-- love your username, by the way!
I tell people I am tired but really my heart is broken and I am sad.
IMO as long as he believes all the decisions are his, things will never change. In house separation and MC when he refuses to go NC come across as wishy-washy. His life doesn't change much and im sure he thinks that as soon as he makes his mind up he can have you back - or not as HE decides. I say this because i was the queen of wishy-washy. Not because that is normally me but because i was so shocked, hurt,scared i could do nothing else. It was only after i finally got my feet back under and made decisions for me (admittedly after catching him in contact for the third time) that he was hit was a dose of reality.
You are worth so much more than what he is giving you. It's hard to remember that when you've been knocked down but until you do he will not have a reason to change.
