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User Topic: Back from vacay
norabird
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Default  Posted: 10:44 PM, June 4th (Wednesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Back from my vacation. The first two days home I didn't look at SI at all, today I lurked but didn't have the energy to post at work. It's good in that I don't have the need to reach out, because I'm not always feeling the pain and trying to process it, but strange too--I felt guilty just lurking, without the energy to step up and help at all. I had phased back my posting anyway before leaving but the fact that it's dropped almost to nothing now is both a good marker of my healing and it's own kind of loss, of the centrality of what SI has been for me. I have been leafing through The Grief Club by Melody Beattie yesterday and today and wondering if perhaps this was a place for me during my crisis only, a seasonal place, not a place for all of my life. But it makes me happy to be able to see all of the familiar names here and also to know that there is a place to air any lingering issues or triggers (which I know will come especially as I start dating and have to deal with trust, intimacy, vulnerability--gah!).

But anyway, just saying hi and that I'm not dead! Or shacked up with a Spaniard somewhere

The trio was so wonderful and I am truly lucky to have such a kind and loving and wonderful and generous family. Now I'm happily back in my beloved NYC for the summer, seeing friends and starting OLD again--I activated a profile on my vacation and have some dates lined up this week.

I feel so much more at peace and almost grateful for the terrible experience--I truly feel more level, more strong, more on top of my life than I did before my relationship, and I don't even really hate my exWBF now. I feel that I was happy with him for a while, but made mistakes in choosing him, and paid beyond all reason for them in a way is never knew possible; now I know the risks of the world better but also I think I learned from my mistakes, that they were mine to make, and I don't regret them. They are what they are and they are part of my story and part of who I am now. And I am truly blessed--I was before, but having to lean on people and realizing how lucky I was to have so many different supports was kind of incredible and humbling. Thinking about the kindness of others to me over the last seven months makes me ready to cry.

And I'm excited about dating too, and meeting new people, having fun and finding someone healthy for me. It will be a learning experience. I'm not very good at, as they say, holding out, so going to have to try and keep an eye on things so I don't get involved and invested too soon.

In the meantime I had a craigslist missed connection yesterday with someone I made eye contact with on the subway, where we both posted about it later and have been emailing at length ever since; lots of fun and quite romantic! But I'm trying to remember the discovery period thing, to know that I don't need to be with someone, to be prepared for disappointment and not to assume that I am on the same page with someone just because we share commonalities.

So that's my update. Hello and kisses to you all!!!!!

[This message edited by norabird at 10:44 PM, June 4th (Wednesday)]


Sit. Feast on your life.

Posts: 4203 | Registered: Jan 2014 | From: NYC
sunsetslost
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Default  Posted: 11:38 PM, June 4th (Wednesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Welcome back. You have given back so much and I for one appreciate it. I always saw your responses on all the threads. I lurk too. Mostly post on the boys' side cause I'm an 8th grader at the dance.

You'll be fine Norabird. Pop in from time to time and let us know how you are doing. Send us some NYC love and ill name a pelican after you.


Divorced 7/11/14. New Beginning on the Gulf of Mexico. It's real nice.

Posts: 780 | Registered: Jul 2013 | From: The beach.
nowiknow23
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Default  Posted: 12:09 AM, June 5th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Good to "see" you, honey. And even better to read your update and know you are in such a place of strength and hope.


You can call me NIK

"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you."
-Walt Whitman


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phmh
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Default  Posted: 6:44 AM, June 5th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Great post!

Also, rather jealous of your CL MC. I've always thought it would be fun to have one!


Me: BW, divorced, now fabulous and happy!

Married: 11 years, no kids

Character is destiny


Posts: 3483 | Registered: Dec 2011
yearsofpain25
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Default  Posted: 10:51 AM, June 5th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Welcome back Norabird. Good to see you. Sounds like you had a great time and are gearing up for a fantastic summer. Good to hear you are doing so well.


25 years and counting of pain caused by mother's infidelity. Aftermath: 1 deceased sibling, 1 lost family, 3 lost souls.
"Each new day I am just glad to be alive and have survived all that I did." Ashland13

Posts: 2351 | Registered: Jan 2014 | From: Northeast US
FaithFool
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Default  Posted: 10:54 AM, June 5th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I found that the vacations I took in the first couple of years really helped me close old doors and open new ones.

It's a great way to reboot and refresh.

[This message edited by FaithFool at 11:07 AM, June 5th (Thursday)]


DDay: June 15, 2008
Mistakenly married Mr. Superfreak
20 years of OWs, WTF?
Divorced Dec 26, 2011
"Life is a shipwreck, but we must not forget
to sing in the lifeboats". -- Voltaire

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MadeOfScars
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Default  Posted: 1:56 PM, June 5th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Great post, and really digging your positivity and focus. I am so glad you go this opportunity to get away with good people.


“Nothing more completely baffles one who is full of trick and duplicity, than straightforward and simple integrity in another.” ― Charles Caleb Colton

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