Have you tried EDMR yet? Is it helping with the mind movies? Mind movies really haunt my BS as well.
No I have not. Believe it or not, after sharing my stories here on SI, a few of the "SI elders" shared that tip with me. I don't remember exactly who though. Merlin maybe?
Anyway, I brought EMDR up to my IC on either the first or second appt that I had. She was familiar with it but didn't have a lot of experience in it. She said she was going to look into it more and could be a possibility for us to use. The problem I've had is that I was stuck on my anger so we haven't really had a lot of time to discuss the "mind movies". I've been in a good state with those lately because I've been on a relief high from having a day of reckoning with my mother. I was so concentrated on that situation and my anger that the mind movies have only come up a handful of times in the last few weeks. The mind movies are far more active for me when I'm down and depressed. This is the time that I really have to be careful with them because I can even become disoriented at times. It's definitely nasty stuff. I can lose time because of them sometimes.
I fought the "label" of having PTSD for a long time because I would associate this as something a combat vet would have. Turns out I was very wrong. The mind movies are in fact a symptom of PTSD and going through a trauma. I really thought I had only been through 1 trauma and tried to argue with my IC on that fact. Then she read me back about 14 points from her notes and pointed out that each one was a trauma and contributed to those mind movies and dreams.
Overall I think my IC is not a good one as I don't feel like I'm getting anything out of her. I will probably change in the next month or so.
Hope that helps. Any more questions don't hesitate to ask or pm me. I'm always available even if I don't get to it right away.