It's as though the year of healing didn't happen! I am full of rage and hurt again.
How about it--has anyone else experienced this? Please tell me so I can make it through the next couple weeks!
Realizing the timeline of his behaviors and what you were experiencing and dealing with during the A, or after, at those times is rough. I had gotten weirdly sick that went on and on in such strange ways, I kept trying to figure out what and why I was going thru these symptoms (I'm a very detailed RN and bottom liner scientific problem solver).
So after I got more distance from the whole mess, the pieces of the puzzle started to make sense(?) and I got MAD. Xwf put my health at great risk, and put me thru hell during 2 yrs., and cost me alot of money and stress, made me very ill. That's why I figured the A started long before he said.
I don't get sad too much anymore, but I will allow myself to get mad, just to keep me on my toes. It reminds me just how to view other peoples' treatment of me in everyday life now too.
[This message edited by Thinkingtoomuch at 11:06 AM, June 6th (Friday)]
For me, as the years have gone by, the rage is all but gone. All that's left is a sadness that someone I loved and trusted would betray me, not once, but twice.
Two steps forward and one step backwards, is still progress.