The last three years have been hell for me (emotionally and physically) and I am more wounded by the fact that after the first affair, I made it very clear that causing that kind of pain from the betrayal is 10 times worse than just telling me he is unhappy and wants a divorce. He agreed to that and we went through counseling and reconciled...we had just got back on track before he retired (or so I thought).
But apparently he doesn't have the energy or desire to exert the effort for me, the kids, or the house. This was plainly said during our open discussion tonight (6/23). I am grieving the sudden end to my marriage as it is over, he is too tired/numb to care and hasn't shed a single tear or really shown remorse. He did apologize but, well, it really doesn't mean much...2 1/2 years of my life could have been different all because he couldn't even write a letter. I now must face and overcome being 100% alone in a year when my son leaves for college. All my dreams and visions of a life with my soul mate are just...gone.
I don't know why he even came home - he doesn't either. "?" I spoke to an attorney today so I am preparing myself legally. WH says I get half and wants a non-contested divorce. This is all I want, I'm not vindictive, I know that my life is about to become drastically poor because any money we have is mostly in retirement funds and I make a meager living as a teacher. I just know that our children have been without him for 3 years and he plans on going back...
Because I love him, his demeanor worries me but he is already making arrangements to go back to Saudi and most likely to her. I will be left with our three broken hearts...I'm dying from the pain and confusion.
I am so sorry for what you are going through.
He robbed you of 2 1/2 years - I think he owes you restitution of some sort for that.
Also, so sorry for your children.
But, you will get through this - I'm sure others will come with advice....just know we're thinking of you and sending strength.
I am so sorry you are going through this.
D-day: Oct. 2013 with ongoing revelations.
6 affairs, 1 OC, My sister was OW#5 with countless attempted A's.
Considering R but fully ready to D.
It is good that you are going to a lawyer yourself, because your WH is just looking out for himself, obviously. You DESERVE much better. It is not about being vindictive, my dear. It's about being equitible. Since you are a teacher, think about it this way. If you assigned your students a group project and it was obvious that one student didn't do his/her share of the work. In fact, that student said "oh, I did this and this." When the student didn't - would you still give that student an A/B because the other student turned in an A/B project? Of course not - it's not equitable. In fact, what would you do? Apply the same principle here.
Know we are here for YOU!
Please take care of yourself. Eat, rest, drink plenty of water and try to be kind to yourself.
D-Day #1 March 2002- 4 month EA and PA with co -worker
D-Day #2 March 2012 - inappropriate relationship with co-worker
I feel that I owe it to my children and him to fully make an effort to open his eyes to this mistake. Who (WH) says that he just wants to work, make lots of money and go home and sit on the couch so that he can retire and sit on the couch for the rest of his life. Thats a major reason why he feels done with the marriage, it is too much energy and he just can't take it.
One of his reasons for being angry since coming home is that he feels ge came home to me making him work around the house - he did several hours of spreading mulch one day and screwed some boards together that I had painted for a flower bed. I just dont know this man, he used to be the exact opposite and want to go, go, go 24/7 and I couldn't keep up and was exhausted because if the kids...now, even with my chronic pain and insomnia, he is exhausted by me and the activities of our kids.
WTH!? I'm churning myself into butter here!? I want to protect my children from the pain of their dad's choice but I know that I can't be married to him if he hates me for who I am....and I'm scared shitless of being totally alone (kids off to college and starting their own life), no family here but the kids feel like this is home and THANK THE LORD I have a friend (she came into my life a year ago when my son and her daughter started dating). I feel lost and like I don't belong .... so conflicted...