Since Do3K became Youth Leader, the demands have increased on not only him, but also on me(especially with organization and written forms of communication, such as permission slips and letters to parents). It's great that he's been placed into this role; it REALLY fits him well and he absolutely LOVES it I am very proud of him and his passion for it, but the added demand on me is difficult, at times.
The part that I am REALLY struggling with, though, is when I see/hear certain people complain about what their kid did or how they "want to send their kid to boot camp". I would LOVE to be a SAHM, again! I NEVER complained about it, when I was one--it's a hard gig, but I truly LOVED every.single.minute. Even the, "OMGsh, kid had me up until 0200 puking and is now super whiny," moments. It's hard when I see/hear this, because I want nothing more than to be home with my kids.
Being a SAHM just isn't an option, right now. We are very close to paying off all of our debt...we currently have one loan and student loans standing between us and freedom from debt. My student loans are half of my income, every month, and we simply cannot make do without me working. Change of job is difficult, although I have been looking, because I am a Registered Nurse trying to find employment in another field (at this point, nursing isn't an option unless it's as a school nurse, or in a Dr's office--both are few and far between type jobs).
I am feeling rather stuck, as my heart is in one place but my "have to" is in another. I know many, if not most, moms face this struggle and I'm not alone in it. I am just struggling especially hard with it, tonight
As I re-read that it sounds a bit harsh and I certainly don't intend it in that manner. I just wondered.
Hugs to you as you continue on this journey.
I know some days are tougher than others. Blessings to you.
I get it. I'm doing the same for mostly the same reasons. while the job I have is amazing and I love it, I miss being home (even though my boys don't "need" or even want * me around sometimes so much anymore). Still, there are days I have to remind myself why I'm doing it, put on adult clothes and grudgingly walk out the door.
just because you're doing it for the right reasons (and you are), doesn't make it easy all the time.
once you're debt free and have options as to what you want to do, I'll be right there whooping and hollering the loudest for you.. till then it just plain sucks, but I'll walk along with you through it, k?
Would love to SAH but my husband is self-employed and my insurance here is too good to give up (at least for now).
I hope you're able to find a way to go back to SAH soon.
I know your kids will appreciate how hard you work for them and it is great that you are modeling responsible fiscal priorities to them. They know how much you love them even though you are working full-time.
I know, not helpful to your situation. But at least you know you're not alone.
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect
Like you, I knew it was the only way. Otherwise, we might not have had a home for them to come to. You are doing the responsible thing. Sadly, telling yourself that doesn't make it any easier or better.
Luckily, I *mostly* had jobs I liked, but that didn't make the changed situation at home any easier to take. Sometimes, being a grownup just stinks.
I put in my application for about 10 positions, today (all either Case Management, Education, or RN Office jobs). They're out there, but they're also highly sought after. I am going to keep looking; in the mean time my boss and I will be having a come to Jesus discussion, b/c the demand is more than is reasonable for one person.
I currently do Outpatient Care Management. I work in an MD office, and 25% of what I do is wellness stuff for employees and families. 75% of what I do is with seniors and management of chronic illnesses, and making sure they have what they need to be successful at home.
If full time is too much some systems offer job sharing in these areas too. I worked with 4 girls who did this, between the 4 of them they = 2 FTE's.
Without giving away where I work...part of my job is to work with kids, during the summer, doing a one hour teaching session. One of the places I am going is in the poorest part of the city (which, coincidentally is the second poorest neighborhood in the state). We are talking about making good choices (teamwork, being different, being good stewards of resources, saving money, etc); today, we talked about saving money and how that we can buy the things we need, and sometimes what we want, but that it's also important to save money. I gave each of them a piggy bank (donated by a local bank) and we gave the piggy's collars, with bells (a piece of ribbon with a bell on it). These kids LOVED their piggy's and kept saying, "Thank you SO MUCH, Miss Mo3K!" I absolutely love these kids and I am sad that I only have two weeks left with them
It occurred to me, on the way home, that *THIS* is where my heart is...it is with kids who are at risk for drug/alcohol abuse, poverty, etc. I absolutely LOVE this part of my job. I am trying to think if there are any areas of nursing that I could work in a place where I can make that kind of a difference. I'm considering WIC and low income clinics...any other ideas???