I'm doing volunteer work today, and it looks like rain here...so I'll see if he contacts me about canceling the sail over the weather. Otherwise, I may go meet friends for a beer tonight.
Am I scared? YUP. FOO issues, possible KISA issues and one "withdraw" already? Yup.
But, I also know he is just human and therefore complicated, just like I am. He isn't his past, he is his now. So, I wait and watch and see who he is now.
The other man is interesting to me for the opposite reason. He is very structured and we joked in an email, "Is is possible to be TOO responsible?". I'm going to give it a day or two and kinda see what happens. me...BS, 43 years old, 2 small kids
WS, 41, multiple gay affairs
M 15 years, together 17
"For whatever we lose, like a you or a me, it's always ourselves we find in the sea" ee cummings