Lots of good news, and I thought I would share.
5 days in a row of good days. First time ever, and we are on a roll now. I hope it keeps going, but the streak will most likely end at some point. So I am living in the now and savoring every one of them.
had IC today (BS comes with to see what I am learning) IC today said at this point, he couldn't ask anything more of me. meaning I am working on everything I am supposed to be. definitely have not "arrived" yet. We are going in the right direction. And he is very encouraged.
I have another job possibility coming up. Hopefully this one works out. It will be the fourth one I have interviewed with since DDay.
My BS and I watched "The Hobbit: Desolation of smaug" tonight. This is huge, DDay 1 happened new years day. Watching this movie in the theater. She asked to borrow my phone, and found old text messages. That went actually quite well. We watched the first part. She triggered through it. Then we paused the movie and talked about it for a while. And then we finished watching it together. That movie represents the minutes before the Nuke hit and the minutes after. Quite a big step.
BS is getting excited about our 14y anniversary coming up in a week. I think this may have been the first time in 10 years :) This will be the first time we ever have done anything for our anniversary. Something small, but it will be something!! Hopefully either the good streak rolls through then, or swings and come back.
I have actually seen some genuine smiles and a little vulnerability from her. Great signs!!
I have been working harder on voicing my feelings. Looking at her pain. Sharing what I can. Discussing my thoughts, all of them.
So good news for a change. Keep hoping, keep fighting. I am no longer Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde. I am me, and they are both part of me.
"If you don't eat the elephant in one bite, it might trample you while chewing"
ME: WH HER: BS (holesinmybucket)
no stop sign = BS always welcome