I first want to commend you for being as strong as you have been throughout this nightmare. Yes, she should have been more "honorable" and asked for a divorce. Intead, she got to cake eat, which was perhaps her plan.
Now, with D firmly in your mind and her no longer to manipulate you, she is resorting to trying to hurt and destroy you further. She informs you that she has a weekend "date" with college friend..pulease. You and all others know what this is. She shoves this in your face? WTF!!!!!!
Time to bring some serious PAIN to her. Send the AM profile to her parents, out her to all her friends, inform DS15 of A (no details tho) In other words, get the facts out there. I do understand that a mediated divorce is best, but do you really think it won't come to scorched earth? IMO not a chance given her behavior the past nine months. In some states, this could be used to make her and unfit mother.
Make her move out NOW. Get a pre divorce agreement in place ASAP as to "support" for her, kids joint custody, freeze finances, etc. I would see if you can get a stipulation that when she has them NO MEN can be present until the divorce is final.
Finally, in regards to STBXWW, I would not be surprised if she were diagnosed with clinical depression. I dealt with this with my mother for many years (not the cheating stuff) Check out Suzy Favor Hamilton's story on radar online. Olympian, wife, mother, successful business woman..became a high priced call girl.
Stay as strong as you continue and DETACH. Discuss only kids concerns and/or D. Nothing else
You were home when she left for AM date???
OK Now: Her sex date with a boyfriend in 2 weeks says a lot. Obviously she doesn't seriously care about reconciliation or she wouldn't do this; flaunting her adultery in your face. Further death blow for the marriage.
Threaten that you will inform the kids/friends and family about her treachery and betrayal if she does not agree; don't be the honorable guy who allows this immoral woman to take any more advantage of you than she already has.
imalive: I would not be surprised if she were diagnosed with clinical depression.
Badhurt: You were home when she left for AM date???
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..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.
It will not be the last. it is her only way to get back at you now that you have rejected her. And she will continue to do it and flaunt it in your face.
That is why you need to get her out of that house. I know you have said you don't care who she fucks, but I know it is not something you want to be told about or forced to see all the time until the D is over and you physically separate.
Do not be surprised if the AM profile is reactivated. It is her safe zone, and I will bet you her next string of fuck buddies comes from her former contacts that she digs up. You can bet she still has all their contact information.
She undoubtedly will be spending a lot of time on her back in hotels to keep digging at you because you have won the game and do not need her any more.
MHCA, you were mr Nice Guy for nine months. Do not go back there and make it harder for you. She is worthless.
Because I have the steady job that provides for all of us, so I can't do school drop offs and pick ups. Yeah, right, bullshit. I am having a very difficult time expressing how angry I am right now. Words are failing.
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I had a long response typed out but I'm not going to post it because what I had to say doesn't matter. Very sad situation that didn't have to happen this way or continue to be this way. I wish she had kept posting instead of letting her thread die. She was getting great advice even if she didn't realize it.
I can really empathize with your kids mhca. Like I said I'm seeing a lot of my own history repeat itself here from DS15's point of view. Lklb5 keeps moving forward in a way that says consequences be damned. The issues go way past cheating or soothing herself with another man. She has no idea...
[This message edited by RomanticInnocenc at 10:48 PM, August 9th (Saturday)]
I got full custody of my son when he was 3. When he turned 12 XW began bribing him. PS, X-box, mini bike, basically anything she could do to get him in front of a judge to get him to say he wanted to live with her. Her main reason for doing so was that she wanted the support she was paying reduced/eliminated. His well being never entered her thinking. Fortunately, he was a smart kid. Point being, STBXW will tell DD anything to *keep* custody.
Have you thought of requesting a custodial evaluation?
I still hope we can work this out collaboratively, since the more I learn the more it seems like litigation is going to put the boys in a terrible situation and be really bad for everyone. But we just can't have shit like this happening.
I know that DS15 wants to spend a good amount of time with me. DS10 is hard to read and I think he's just stressed out right now. Always tough to know what's in the mind of a ten year old anyway, let alone in a shitty situation like this.
I think someone put this "every other weekend and one night alternating weeks" (one night per week have one boy here and one there, switching) idea in her head and she's clinging to it. That's only about 20% of the time with me for each boy though. Seems like such a small amount of time.
What is it that you want, that you think would be fair on the boys and works for you with work?
The fact that she got angry with ds15 isn't a great sign. She feels he dobbed on her. What is she, another child? She should be addressing his concerns and worries, not adding to them by making him feel he has to be careful what he says to each parent!
I am incensed for you!!! 20% is what she wants you to have???? Huh, what a joke. My thought is that with this type of custody split, while she may indeed love the kids, it means more child support... more MONEY for her. That is, IMO, a huge factor in this thought. People are telling her this because it means more MONEY!!!! Besides, why would she want this, leads to less time to be on her back getting fucked by new "friends"
I would absolutely be bat shit right now. She "poured" her heart out in the posts, she "rather be R than D" "divorce feels so wrong." Where the hell was she for 9 months with R? You reject her, she sets up a "overnight date" just a couple of days after posting all of that...?
Hire your L tomorrow and get the temp custody, "support", etc in place and get her the hell out of the house, she is not safe for anyone, including the boys. She gets mad at DS15 because he told you what he heard? Mother of the year she isn't.
Stay strong man...and PROTECT your boys, yourself, and your assets
Don't worry about what she might do.
I don't know if I mentioned this, but fuck what she wants.
DDay - June 7, 2014
Me - 43
WW - 41
DD - 6 and 3
Pulling the Plug
She's never had any trouble asking for what she wants and I've always just assumed that I would give it to her. At least, until shortly before the A. I pushed back on some major expenses she wanted to incur and that was part of her twisted logic in giving herself permission to have the A. Blah.
Anyway, there's no way that me having 20% custody is good for the kids. Should be 50/50. Plus, she's going to have to get a career going and having excessive custody will only make that harder. Thanks for the reminder.
BTW, can I use you as a reference when advising newbies to see a lawyer that the experience, while painful, is not fatal? I've consistently told people that knowledge is power and is another way to minimize WS mind games.
Your story made me cry bc it was much to similar to my own. I have three small children, and I am in the very middle of divorcing (which went nuclear after many promises to the contrary). She started out swearing to me she didn't want any of my money and that she would share custody - now she wants it all, the children and the money (I suspect not in that order).
Ask and fight for full custody! It's not a matter of time spent with the children, it's about the choices that get made for them. If she wants to spend more time with then you can allow it.
I decided to go this route, and I think I'll end up with a 50% time split, but only bc I asked for full custody! My STBX is a VERY savy negotiator and I am not. I'm very glad I asked for full custody and fought to 50%.
I would also advise to get out of there, or at least get her out. IMO your healing will take place faster when you don't have to deal with the constant reminder of her betrayal(s).
Hang in there! You are in the middle of the pain right now. I hurt for you, brother. I didn't even realize how badly I was hurting when I was still in the house with her... I'm so glad I got out as when I did. Good luck with whatever you decide.
"every other weekend and one night alternating weeks" (one night per week have one boy here and one there, switching)
FWIW, your stbxww's perception that you'll be unable to handle doing school drop-offs and pick-ups is not enough to justify an EOW schedule (unless you spend a lot of the week traveling for your job), imo.
In my effort to be *concise*, I often come off as blunt and harsh. Sorry, don't mean to be offensive.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think one of the greatest fears of a BS is that their WS is going to abandon them if they try and R. The WS did abandoned the BS before, they are certainly capable of doing it again. When you left the door open a crack she proved to you that she would not stick around and it was abandon ship. She's still doing that even if she shows you a different face. Sounds like she is already planning with her sister. My heart breaks for those kids of yours. I was one of them. Fight like crazy for them.
This thing is going to continue to get uglier. How have your interactions been now that she's back home? Has she shown anything to make you think this D was going to be amicable?
Looks like I can take care of next Thursday morning. Do the kids know about your overnight plan?
As long as it worked with you, I am planning on staying in [the city] Wednesday night and hanging out [there] in the morning.
Yeah, that's fine, you're free to do what you want, but I assume this is an overnight with a man? I don't think that's a good example for the kids before the D decree is finalized. I won't tell them but they're more perceptive than you think.
I am seeing a friend from college from [college city], who does happen to be a man, but it is not about his being a man. It is about getting to spend time together and not drinking and driving as he is in town less than 24 hours. If you and I were together, I would have invited him to stay at our house. I don't plan on making a big deal out of it to the boys, because it really isn't.
Is he married?
I think this shows very poor judgement in your part. Staying overnight in a hotel with a man while our S isn't even out-of-house so you can drink? Really?
No. Divorced and involved with someone out there. He has one child he shares custody with. She may be with him.
How about getting a break and spending time with a friend while living in a difficult situation? You get a night and morning with your kids, and I get a night away.
If you can't see the problem here I don't know what else to say, especially after all we've been through. I give up. I'll think about whether I'm OK the child care and let you know.
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