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Default  Posted: 11:41 PM, October 15th (Monday)

A very long story. I met my wife when I was 19. She was my first sexual encounter. Moved in after about 3 weeks, we were having sex after 1 week. We didnt date as such, it was very sexual. My wife had been sexually assaulted numerous times before I met her. When she was 14 she was raped by a teenager aquaintance.

She then was also raped by a boyfriend quite a few times during a abusive relationship, through their time together of about 3 years. Another time she was raped by an older man, when she stayed at his and his wifes house. The wife left for work in the morning and he raped her. She claims she was too afraid to stop him.

Another time she says she went home with a couple of guys after her 18th birthday, and you guessed it the guy raped her. Another time she was physically touched and this is the only time she laid charges, and the man was sent to jail. So a lot happenned to her before we got together. She never got much support from her family etc. or counselling to help with this.

We got together and it was all fun and such. She told me about her past problems, and i was fine with it. She was always extremely touchy, and edgy. One little disagreement and she would go off, many times punching and hitting me etc. Getting on with this we got together in 1995.

Around 1998, i went away for a weekend to my parents, and she didnt come because we had one of those little disagreements before. So she stayed home, we had a male flatmate. I went away and came home. She was so happy to see me. But very insistent in going to new years where this flatmate was. We got there, and that night, she said she wanted to break up. So we kinda did, but not really, and we had new years together with the flatmate at a few nightclubs. We came home, for a few days before the flatmate came back. Over the next few weeks we got back together. About a few weeks later the flatmate moved out.

Fast forward to 2000, and my wife became pregnant with our first child. She suffered a lot of depression, i was working long hours, and no support from her family. We had our second child in 2003, depression really bad after this as well.In 2004 we had our first (really second problem). My wife went with friends and their 15 year old nephew away for the day, as I couldnt get babysistting for our child. She came home and over the next few days behaved weird and got many text messages on our mobile, but wouldnt show me.

At the third day I came home. And she told me to sit down. She had been caught out by the 15 years old sisters who read his phone and told their mum. The mum told our friend that if my wife didnt stop what she was doing she would tell me. They had basically been sexting each other to the point where she was organising for him to leave school at lunchtime and meet at our house, whilst i was at work and the child was in babysitting. I was shocked and heartbroken. Didnt know at the time but I was too weak,and she really didnt get any consequences for it. A bit later we were having a fight, and she blurted out, no wonder i didnt tell you about me and the flatmate sleeping in his bed that night you went to your parents. She claims she was upset, and needed someone in the bed. She claims nothing happenned. Her version of events is he tried to get her drunk, so guess what she slept in his bed, but they didnt touch each other. She didnt even like him apparently. I rang this guy, and he said nothing happenned that night, but they did have sex later. When I said to him, he better not be lying, he said he has nothing to gain from telling me lies. She has continually denied this. Okay another thing to give me nightmares over. How the hell can you do that, again i really didnt give her consequences. I do know they never communicated again after he moved out.

We never really got going properly again. I always mulled over everything, occasionally just bluring out stuff about this to hurt her at times. She was still very depressed, on and off medication etc. Still physically abusive etc to me.

2009 she begins a emotional affair on facebook with another guy(45 year old) from overseas. Goes on for about 3 months before i had enough of her spending all her time on facebook, and i installed a spy program, and got copies of all her conversations. I hit her with it and she went off her head even to the point of saying she would hurt the kids. I rang the police and they took her to hospital for an assessment. They said she was fine and wouldnt hurt the kids. I sent her packing to her parents and she stayed there for about 3 days before she came home, and we sorta swept it under the carpet. She has over all this time quite a few times threatening suicide, been admitted to hospital a few times.


Now I did something stupid. I started confiding things in my mates wife. Now there is no way in hell i am attracted to her. But she was good to talk to. It was basically her saying flirty stuff, and me not stopping her. I never said i wanted her or wanted to do anything. But she did send me photos and video of herself. She is an extremely damaged woman who cheats constantly.

I guess the attention made me feel good. In the end i told my wife about what was going on, just after the woman told me she loved me. There is no way in hell, anything would of happenned or would of. But yes I can say i guess i had an emotional affair of my own then.

Late last year she needs to go to here aunties place to help her female 14 year old cousin who has been sexually assaulted. Her cousin was going to court. I began to feel funny when she acted weird on her text messages etc. She rings me on the day before she was coming home, and says she was bringing her 17 year old male cousin home for a few weeks. i say no, i just lost my father, i dont want anyone here. She in the end says ok, i wont bring him. Next morning she rings, and says he's coming i dont care what you say.

Well they get here and over the next few days , not much, just feeling uncomfortable as they seem to be way too touch feely for cousins. On the wednesday night, she tells me she wants him to move in, as it would be much better for him here as he doesnt like it at his mothers. We fight, and i say no way. Next night i go into the computer room , and find him on the seat perched behind my wife. I go off, but she just says i am being silly. He stays for another week, i dont know why or how i let him stay, but nothing major, but small stuff that cousins dont do . REMEMBER i was at work during the day but who knows.

Also whilst he was here i kept saying to her , that what looked to be going on wasnt right, and she kept saying you are being silly. You need help maybe you need to see a shrink, you are going crazy. Weeks later she tell whilst she was at her aunties, the 17 year old male cousin (who has autism, and is a drug user etc, dropkick) told her he wanted to sleep with her. She said she was feeling attracted to him (apparently they have an emotional connection) but told him she couldnt because she was married and he was her cousin. During this time they were still talking on phone and texting. Also i told her mother about this and his mother, but they dismissed it. My wife even made me apoligize to him and his mother for suggesting this stuff was going onBeen a year now, we have done some counselling etc, but nothing really going there. She hasnt had any contact with him since. Says she doesnt even think about him. She says how silly she was, and doesnt know why i stay with her.

We are just going through the motions. I always ponder over whether she has had sex with the cousin, or the flatmate. She has always denied this, even at points where she is so broken down emotionally she is going to kill herself.

I dont really know what to do. I do love her, but always in the back of my mind is all this crap. year. Any thoughts.

[This message edited by annoyedman1976 at 11:47 PM, November 21st (Wednesday)]


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Default  Posted: 6:02 AM, October 16th (Tuesday)

Welcome. and so sorry you have to be here.

It's so hard to exist when your gut is telling you one thing so loudly, and everyone else denies it. I know that feeling.


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Default  Posted: 9:19 AM, October 16th (Tuesday)

Welcome to SI

It sounds like there are many things going on with your wife. In your counseling, have you brought up your concerns with your wife having some boundary issues and that you think that her choices might be due to her past of being raped? For a counselor can only work with the knowledge that they have. Her outbursts of anger and violence should be brought out too, as well as her bouts of depression. She might bring out issues about you too so you'll have to think if they are real or if they are attempts to take the focus off of her.

Since the computer and phone show no irregular activity then it is possible that she has gone "underground" or has ceased. Her behaviors in other areas may be a clue into which of the 2 is correct.


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Default  Posted: 9:56 AM, October 16th (Tuesday)

It sounds like a lot of raping going on before you met her. Not saying it isn't true, just wondering how someone could put themselves in that situation so many times with so many different people. It also sounds like she has never known how to set boundaries and that is what she is continung to do now. She needs some serious psychological help and I hope she gets it. Until she does, you will continue to have to live like this. Sending you prayers and hugs.


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Default  Posted: 7:44 PM, October 16th (Tuesday)


It sounds like a lot of raping going on before you met her. Not saying it isn't true, just wondering how someone could put themselves in that situation so many times with so many different people.

This is what I thought too, when I read the post. Was she just imagining it, or was she lying? A woman who has been raped is usually very careful about who she hangs around or becomes involved with and is careful about the situations she allows herself to get into. I'm not saying it can't be true, but I think it's highly unlikely. What does she call rape? Be careful.

If she has suicide thoughts, there is a clue that she is unstable.

You do have a choice. You don't have to feel obligated to stay with her, even though it seems like nothing is going on right now; there may be something going on or there may not be. It's really hard to tell. My point is, don't feel like you have to stay with her just because it's been a year since there have been signs. Sometimes it takes a person a year, sometimes longer, to process everything enough to make a decision, and that's okay.


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Default  Posted: 8:36 PM, October 16th (Tuesday)

With all those rapes, with the suicide threats, it really sounds like your wife manipulates the situation and plays the victim to get what she wants in life. Putting aside the infidelities, she is having VERY inappropriate interactions with CHILDREN, if not having sex with them, there are some MAJOR issues with your wife. And it's pretty clear that you don't mind much as you've been, up to this point, sweeping everything under the rug and letting her get away with it for well over a decade now. At this point, she has zero motivation to change becuase you're still here and always have been, and she has really no motivation to work on herself as you've helped her rug sweep every one of her issues all along.

IMO, she needs some time away from you, and you need some time away from her, and you both need to work on your own personal issues. At that point, maybe then you guys can work on your issues together. That's just my opinion though. Either way, your wife needs some serious, and long term, help.


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Default  Posted: 9:35 PM, October 16th (Tuesday)

Im sorry,but I think your wife has some DEEP,serious issues.

She seems to have a thing for under aged young men.

I think her stories or multiple rapes are suspicious.

She has threatened to harm innocent children.

She is physically abusive.

She threatens suicide as a way to manipulate you into shutting up about her bad behaviors.

Insist she got to IC..and that she signs a release for the IC to talk to you.

This woman is unstable. And possibly dangerous.

((((annoyedman and kids))))


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Default  Posted: 9:05 AM, October 17th (Wednesday)

annoyedman1976...you have a very sad story. I am sorry that you are suffering from all this craziness. Your wife has some very serious issues that you are not equipped to deal with. It is only going to get worse. She needs professional long term help. It sounds like something terrible happened to your W in her past that is making her act out this way. Normal people do not behave this way. It is time to have a frank talk with her mother and other relatives to find out what occurred. You need to know her true history so you can get the proper help in place.

Unfortunately, I am suspicious of all her claims of rape. Not saying it didn't happen because I wasn't there and anything is possible but usually a rape victim is very cautious around men and tries to stay out of situations that she would have no control over. She seriously needs to be in intensive IC and possibly meds. She may still be a danger to you, herself, and your children. It is your responsibility to protect your children from harm and since she has threatened them in the past you need to ensure their safety.

She is acting very inappropriate with young males and possibly criminally if she had sex with an underaged teen. How do you know what actually occurred with the 15 yr old or the 17 yr old cousin?

Are you sure your children will be safe from all forms of harm until they reach adulthood? You have a huge mess on your hands and you cannot fix it or repair it on your own. You need help and you need it fast. Please reach out to social services and take advantage of their programs, they are there to help families like you. Again, I am so very sorry for your pain.


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Default  Posted: 1:12 AM, October 18th (Thursday)

Have booked her in to the GP for a mental health assessment, and possibly back on anti depressants. Her mum concurs with all the past events before me. She did get her counselling, but it didnt seem to do much. She was strong willed, and frankly i think her mum swept it under the carpet as too hard to deal with. Her mum was also a victim of sexual assault, and was made to give up that baby.

I myself will be getting some IC to help me deal with this. Nothing definately happenned with the 15 year old, it was caught quickly by that boys sisters and their mother told. My wife came clean with it then. If it had of gone sexual, she could of been locked up. She still told me not long ago, that if anything did happen, it was only going to affect her. I said what a load of crap, it would of impacted us all.

I dont know where to go with her. She hasnt worked basically since she fell pregnant with the first child. Now she has a stomach problem, which means she is in constant pain. Dont think I want to live with this for the rest of my life.

She does love the kids very much, and I dont think she would ever hurt them..

The cousin thing, this is just sick. She told me that she didnt mean to go down there and fall in love. Who knows if they did have sex, she denies it. But she constantly lied about this and a lot of other stuff. So who would know.

Dont know how she could do that to us, when she seemed fine when she went. All just too much at the moment, 1 year after this.


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Default  Posted: 5:00 AM, October 18th (Thursday)

She has had individual counselling for about 2 years going over the rape and sexual abuse. I went with her for about the last year after the cousin event. The counsellor knew everything, and thought a lot of it had to do with being sexually abused when she was 14. He claimed that she probably has a personality disorder, and he actually asked her a couple of times, whether there was someone other than my wife in there. In the end he really wasnt doing anything. He enjoyed talking more about his cars then doing anything for us. So we are going to try to find a new one in the next couple of weeks.

Any thoughts on getting the wife to do a polygraph to see if she has in fact sexually cheated on me, not that it really matters. But it does to me.


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Default  Posted: 3:14 PM, October 18th (Thursday)

It sounds like you are doing an aweful lot for your wife and I am truly sorry for her past. I too am a victim of sexual abuse and assault. In reality people wonder why I continued to put myself in "those" situations etc - but really it was because I didn't know better. It took a lot of therapy etc to get myself to where I am now.
That aside - I'm concerned about you! You need help, too. Being a caregiver can be exhausting and hard - please look into that and follow up with your own dr for help as well.
Have you gotten std testing? - that is something that must be done ASAP. I'm not sure where you are posting from but feel free to PM me - I am currently on medical leave from my job - I was an addictions counsellor. PTSD is tied very closely with addictions especially since I primarily saw first nations people in Canada. It's a melding of many traumas and hopefully I can help your situation.
Take care of YOU and everything else usually falls into place.


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Default  Posted: 3:24 PM, October 18th (Thursday)

Sorry - we cross- posted! As for the poly, please take or leave this suggestion - I would wait until you all are more stable. First things first - std testing for the pair of you and no sex without protection (and I would rather say no sex at all) until the results come back. Please read the healing library here if you haven't already. I'm not one to do arm chair diagnoses but there very well may be a personality disorder. Find a good psychiatrist and a great PTSD therapist (the PTSD is for you both).
Take care!


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Him - serial cheater
R? Still not sure if this is a deal breaker...

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Default  Posted: 3:43 PM, October 18th (Thursday)

Annoyed,

Firstly, I am so sorry you find yourself here. although this is the best place to deal with infidelity.

Second, Please contact your local domestic violence abuse shelter for recommendations on therapists for you and your wife.

Her sexual assaults have left her with very poor boundaries.. (it may be a family thing, regarding the cousin) and a lot of sexual assault victims handle things very polar opposite. One may be very leary around men... another may feel that if she controls the sexual encounters-she is in control and not a victim.

It is convoluted, but getting her the proper therapist will help her and you.

Good luck


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Default  Posted: 9:20 PM, October 19th (Friday)

Wife has had a std check just recently it all came back clear. Although they didnt test for herpes, because she does get cold sores at times of stress, it wouldnt come back reliably. Is it even worth me doing the same checks. I have never been with anyone else.

I will leave the polygraph till after she has been to a new psychologist, and it seems to be getting somewhere.

She seems to be very sorry for her actions, we will see how we go.

[This message edited by annoyedman1976 at 11:51 PM, November 21st (Wednesday)]


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Default  Posted: 5:23 AM, October 25th (Thursday)

Really struggling. Want to go down and rip the cousin's head off. But I know, thats not the answer. She is more to blame than him.

But how can i let him get away with it. Seems in most cases i read there is a spouse on the other person.

My wife seems to pick single and generally young people to do this with. I am nearly too ashamed to tell say the cousins friends etc. It will come back at me all over facebook etc.

Maybe i am trying to save face, as i am too embarassed by it all.

So hard at the moment.


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Default  Posted: 5:42 AM, October 25th (Thursday)

Bro, while I understand your anger here. Your not looking at this rationally. This kid is only 15. He does not have the mental capacity to understand the severity of whats going on here. All he knows is that an older woman has shown sexual interest in him. He is turned on by it all and is not to blame. This is why its against the law !!!! Its quite common for an abused person to become an abuser themselves. Its a vicious cycle that continues until the person gets help or the law intervenes. Your WW has some serious issues that need to be dealt with now. She is a repeat offender here. And if you find out she did sleep with this kid and do not tell the authorities. Your criminally liable as well. Keep your focus on the real issue here. And the issue is your WW. Would you have the same frame of mind if the 15 yo was your daughter and the adult was your cousin ? I think not. Personally I could not be in a M with a person who is a child abuser. And thats where this was heading if it has not already happened. Just because the underage victim was male does not negate the crime. You have a very serious problem on your hands. I suggest you keep your mind on what really is going on here.


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Default  Posted: 11:52 PM, November 21st (Wednesday)

Wife and I are booked in seperately to see a clinical psychologist at the end of next week. Hoping to have a better experience with this lady, then the last man.

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Default  Posted: 11:56 PM, November 21st (Wednesday)

What would people think of my thoughts of my wife, writing a post in the Wayward Side forum.?

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Default  Posted: 7:16 AM, November 22nd (Thursday)

The WS forum is incredibly helpful for those who want to get help. Sometimes we get WS who do not truly want to fix themselves, so there is that possibility too, but there are WS who smell it a mile away.

Are you ok with her possibly figuring out who you are and reading your posts? That is the only issue I personally have. It would take away SI as my safe place. My H said he wasn't interested in posting, just reading what I say. At that point it's not a tool for him to use to fix himself, it's just him monitoring my healing. Like reading a journal. I don't read his journal because that is his place to work on his healing. This is my place to work on mine.

If you think she is truly remorseful and willing to do the hard work for R, and she is in IC, then please send her to the WS forum. There are lots of us willing to help! You just need a few ground rules about both being on SI. Some of the SI couples on here have a really good system between them and it's because they have an agreement and follow it.


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Default  Posted: 11:28 PM, December 5th (Wednesday)

Both the wife and I saw the psychologist seperately last week. Wife went through all her past events, except the cousin event.

I had a good session. She seems to think i maybe just staying for the children. Kinda relates back she says to my mother who stayed for so long with multiple infidelites by my father.

My wife still doesnt want to talk about past events with me, says she will talk to the psychologist. She doesnt want to go there, its too painful apparently. So that leaves me in limbo, because I know she has only told me a little of the total story.


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Default  Posted: 7:02 AM, December 6th (Thursday)

Why didn't she talk about the "cousin event?"

If she won't talk to you,then tell her you're taking R off the table. She must communicate with you. Painful or not.

Unless its the rapes she's talking about. I have been raped when I was a teenager. I have dealt with it. And I reserve the right to refuse to talk to anyone about it,even my WH.

But if it's her infidelities she is refusing to talk about then that's different. She has to talk to you about it,or this marriage is not a marriage.

[This message edited by confused615 at 7:03 AM, December 6th (Thursday)]


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M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10
Status: Reconciling?

..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.


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Default  Posted: 1:21 AM, December 7th (Friday)

She has talked to me about all the rapes. The reason she didnt talk to the psychologist about the cousin event, was because it was her first session with this psychologist, and they ran out of time!

She wants to talk things over with the psychologist before she starts going over things again with me. Which really irritates me


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Default  Posted: 5:32 AM, December 7th (Friday)

It sounds like she wants to allow her IC to decide what you should and should not know.

YOU get to decide what you want to know,and what you want to talk about. Not her IC.


BS(me)42
FWH 45
4 kids
M: June 2001
D-Day: 8/10/10
Status: Reconciling?

..that feeling you get in your stomach, when you heart's broken. It's like all the butterflies just died.


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Default  Posted: 11:59 PM, February 8th (Friday)

The wife has been to a few psychologists appointments, but at the last one, the psychologist told her she needs some medication before she can do much with her. Saw the doctor the other day, and are organising a pyschiatric review with a Psychiatrist. When I had my IC session, the psychologist said possiblity she may have a personality disorder.

She is having multiple health issues at the moment, with stomach and woman problems. So life isnt exaclty easy on all fronts.

She has now deactivated her facebook account, and continues NC.


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Default  Posted: 5:36 PM, March 9th (Saturday)

Everyday is just so freaking hard. I know i need to leave, but for some reason i just cannot do it.

She will not talk about the affair, just doesnt want to go there. Apparently i am the one that keeps her esteem so low. According to her, i am the one the tries to keep her down emotionally and in that kind of state.

She will not read "Not Just Friends' on my suggestion. Apparently it will mess her work up with her Psychologist, and she doesnt want to get confused.

I go how can you get confused.


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Default  Posted: 8:49 PM, March 9th (Saturday)

I'm not giving advice, but if I were in your situation I'd call it a day and be done.

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Default  Posted: 9:58 PM, March 9th (Saturday)

Is it possible to ask her Dr to suggest "not just friends" to your wife?

Here I can speak to anyone's dr about them. The dr. cannot speak to me regarding anyone.

I utilize that window every so often with my parents physicians. My parents tend to keep things from the good Dr's... so the Dr's don't think bad about them. Problem is that secret sometimes has a big part in how they are treated. But my parents won't give in and come clean. So I call or write the Dr's office and tell them the secret.

I wonder if you can do the same with your wife's Dr?

Good luck,

K


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Default  Posted: 11:21 PM, October 5th (Saturday)

Still living in this limbo. Still no contact. Wife has been good in that regard. She goes to mental health this week for her first visit with a psychiatrist. I think they need to get all this cheating information as well, but do i wait till she has been at least once. She still refuses to talk about anything to do with the affairs.
She has let it slip, she hates the cousin, and wants to kill him. Wont tell me why, and says i will never know.

She says she has too much shit going through in her mind, and she doesnt want to talk about it to me.

I know i should leave. I dont know how i would go with just me and the kids, with work etc. Just a stuffed up shit situation


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Default  Posted: 11:40 PM, October 5th (Saturday)

Your wife sounds like she has borderline personality disorder.

if you do a search on google, you can find another forum called BPD Family and they have an awesome support forum for people who have a BPD in their life.

Your wife's issues do not just seem to be the infidelity.


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headdesk
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Default  Posted: 12:13 AM, October 6th (Sunday)

Yeah, I have to say here that there is a LOT of stuff going on, and while I can totally understand why the infidelity is the one pinging the highest on your meter, there is so much stuff at play here that it's pretty scary.

The biggest worry I have, frankly, is the kids. No matter how any parent tries to cover stuff up, the kids understand and see a lot more than they'd expect. I saw some pretty dysfunctional things from my mom and between my parents/stepparent and it left me a lot to work on as an adult. My mom was 'only' mildly bipolar. This seems like a bigger deal.

If your kids aren't in counseling, you might want to talk to the therapist if that would be something they'd recommend. I'm sorry that you have to be the one dealing with so much here and I wish you the best of luck.


Me: 39
WH: 42
DDay:Sep 19 2013 (only TT of EA)
Oct 4th 2013 revealed PA through snooping.
Marred 16 years, together for 20. Looking to R at this time. We have awesome kids (12/14).

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annoyedman1976
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Default  Posted: 12:19 AM, October 6th (Sunday)

Thanks, i have just checked out BPD family and will do some reading.

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annoyedman1976
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Default  Posted: 4:45 AM, October 11th (Friday)

Wife was diagnosed with BPD Borderline Personality Disorder today with a psychiatrist today at mental health. Her case worker will work with us to get her into DBT therapy and psychotherapy. Hopefully a step in the right direction. Thanks.

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