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libertyrocks
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Member # 38924
Default  Posted: 11:59 AM, April 10th (Wednesday)

Just found out yesterday WH confessed to having emotional affairs since we met 13 years ago. It never became physical until recently when we had our first child a few years ago. I understand why, but would any of you forgive this for so long? I don't understand why he was even with me, married me, or had two beautiful babies with me...


Me-BW 35. STBXH-35,active alcoholic, suspected NPD SA. 2 little boys. M 6yrs T13.
Year+ false R & TT from Dday1 Nov 2012 IEA - Feb 2014 count at 10 OW PA's 1LTA (all W lied to) for 3 years that I know of.
Filed for D.

Posts: 816 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: So Cal, baby. :)
Jrazz
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Member # 31349
Default  Posted: 1:28 PM, April 10th (Wednesday)

It's so hard to reconcile the idea that someone could do this to their partner when you couldn't fathom doing it yourself.

Forgiveness is something that is very unique to every person and each situation. Don't worry about whether you're "supposed" to or not. This is your heart, your journey.

I'm so sorry for the recent discovery - each new revelation is like a fresh knifewound. Keep putting one foot in front of the other, and remember that you don't have to have any answers right now. Right now it's about breathing and taking care of yourself and your precious children.

When you feel like you have time to process, please share how you found out about the EA's. There might be an indicator in there as to how this is going to shake out.

Just take things in small doses. We're here for you.

(((libertyrocks)))


For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning. - T.S. Eliot

Posts: 14698 | Registered: Feb 2011 | From: California
libertyrocks
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Member # 38924
Default  Posted: 1:53 PM, April 10th (Wednesday)

You're so gentle, Jrazz. Thank you. Nothing seems to shock me anymore. I'm understand why he's done all the things he's done. At this point I was prepared for him to tell me he had been having A's the whole time we were together. I looked up narcissim and ifidelity and realized his personality disorder. Then, I asked him and he said he had EA's the whole time. He never comes out and tells me ANYTHING. I have found out EVERYTHING I know up until today. I'm positive there's more he will never tell me unless I have proof.

[This message edited by libertyrocks at 1:55 PM, April 10th (Wednesday)]


Me-BW 35. STBXH-35,active alcoholic, suspected NPD SA. 2 little boys. M 6yrs T13.
Year+ false R & TT from Dday1 Nov 2012 IEA - Feb 2014 count at 10 OW PA's 1LTA (all W lied to) for 3 years that I know of.
Filed for D.

Posts: 816 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: So Cal, baby. :)
brokensmile322
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Member # 35758
Default  Posted: 3:55 PM, April 10th (Wednesday)

((Liberty))

I agree with Jrazz. You don't need to decide right now. Some people know right away that it is a deal breaker. Others, it takes time and at least a try at trying to R. Others don't even get the chance to R if their partner cuts and runs.

What IS important is that YOU take care of YOU!


Me BS 42
Him WS 44
OW Coworker
DDay April 7, 2012
EA on a slippery slope...

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Viktor Frankl


Posts: 1298 | Registered: Jun 2012
brkn_heartd
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Member # 30396
Default  Posted: 8:51 PM, April 10th (Wednesday)

I agree with the other ladies. You have time to decide and chose. What is a deal breaker for one, is not a deal breaker for another. Only you know what you will and will not tolerate in your life.

I will ask a couple of questions you need to be thinking of. Can you live with him knowing he has done this for 13 years? Can you live with him knowing he will never tell you the truth unless you find proof? Can you live with him wondering if he is having an EA or PA with someone else if he is not showing remorse?

It doesn't sound like he is showing much remorse. Right now, take care of your self and your children. You do not have to decide now, do it in your own time.


Me-50 BS
Him 57-WS
Married 30 yrs, together 33
Affair Aug-Dec 09
official D-12/14/09
broke NC 1/31/10
second D 3/19/10

Posts: 1441 | Registered: Dec 2010 | From: Northwesten US
libertyrocks
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Member # 38924
Default  Posted: 4:11 PM, April 12th (Friday)

Jrazz, I accused him of having PA's the whole time and he confessed to the EA's.


Me-BW 35. STBXH-35,active alcoholic, suspected NPD SA. 2 little boys. M 6yrs T13.
Year+ false R & TT from Dday1 Nov 2012 IEA - Feb 2014 count at 10 OW PA's 1LTA (all W lied to) for 3 years that I know of.
Filed for D.

Posts: 816 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: So Cal, baby. :)
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