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womanfromohio
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Default  Posted: 7:47 PM, April 24th (Wednesday)

I just got back from visiting my parents..in CA (we are in Ohio). It was just the kids and I. My husband stayed home to work. I was a nervous wreck about leaving him by himself. I did download a spyware thing on his phone, which did help ease my mind. The closer it got to the time for me to leave, the lesser I worried about leaving him. I only checked the spyware online twice, the entire time I was gone. I thought for sure I'd be checking it numerous times a day. I missed my husband, but I didn't. I forgot to call or text him numerous times when I said I would. He constantly texted me throughout the day letting me know how much he missed the kids and I and he's going crazy without us (we were gone a week..the longest my husband and I have been away from one another). I don 't know. I could've stayed gone longer. I was in no hurry to get back home to him. When our plane landed, he sent me a text saying where he had parked, and that he was all smiles and so giddy to see us. I had no feelings whatsoever. I was happy to see him, but not the feeling I expected to have. I didn't jump all over him. I just wanted to get in the car and go home. I did hug him, because I know he had missed me so much.
We get home, and I start unpacking, and we hardly talked. I went to bed straight after unpacking (we didn't get home until about midnight). I had no desire for him to hold me or anything. These feelings are confusing the heck out of me. What does this mean? I wish I had the money for a counselor


Me-30
Him-34
3 children (14, 9, and 3)
Together 13 years, married 8
DD- June 2, 2011

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jo2love
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Default  Posted: 7:14 AM, April 25th (Thursday)

(((woman)))

Maybe you needed a "break" at least from the day to day seeing DH and being reminded of the A. I think it's a normal part of R to have this push/pull of wanting to be with them and then wanting to get away from it all. Sending you strength.




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LimboStill
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Default  Posted: 2:12 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

My h's been away for work and I've felt like I can finally breath. I agree. There are a lot of confusing feelings that come with this. Counseling has been helpful. I know some communities have free or sliding scale counselors. Have you tried calling the health department to see if there are any resources available to you. Best of luck.


No longer in limbo.

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