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CuckoldedinMa
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Sad  Posted: 1:15 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

Hello friends. I know I've been gone for a long time, and I have so very much to tell you.

So, where I left off I was late February, when I was still living with friends, we had begun MC, and I still had hoped for R. You may recall that D-Day happened literally days after we had booked a trip to Hawaii to visit my sister, who lives there. There was quite a bit of drama over whether she was going on the trip or not. Once SHE made me decide for her that she wasn't going, there was a whole ordeal with me having to do the legwork involved in finding out if her ticket was refundable. It wasn't.

So I went to Hawaii in March and had an absolutely amazing time. Not only that, but my sister and her boyfriend made a full court press trying to convince me to move there. I could feel the stress slowly leaving my body over the week I spent there, and the people were absolutely amazing. Friendly. As someone who's lived in Boston for the last 21 years, this was a welcome and shocking change. ;-) So I really started thinking about the possibility of moving there, and decided to give myself a deadline. Our lease is up on our apartment in September, and I decided that if I hadn't seen things going the direction I needed them to, I would break the news to her that it was over in June, and move to Hawaii. My sister says she's more than willing to let me stay with them for a while until I can find a place of my own. I could more than likely continue to do my current job from there, as I largely work remotely as it is. My sister's boyfriend also seems quite confident that he could find me work as well. All the pieces seemed to be coming together... it was hard to ignore.

So, as the plane is leaving Honolulu to head back to LA, I jokingly text my sister "Do I really have to leave?" She says "Now's your chance! ". The plane takes off, and an hour into the flight, someone unfortunately got very ill, and we had to turn around and head back!! Then, the next morning, on my flight to Boston, I'm flipping through all the TV channels on the plane, out of all the movies in the world to be on, right then... it was "Forgetting Sarah Marshall". Which is a film about a bad breakup, and finding love again IN HAWAII. I literally said "Really, universe? It seems you're trying to tell me something.

So back to reality in Boston. I hadn't decided until I got home whether or not I was going to try moving back in, or going back to stay with friends. I decided to give moving back in a shot. Which has been pretty difficult at times.

All the while during MC, at no point did she actually take ownership of the A, and continued to blameshift, deflect, and employ all the usual denial. Oh sure, she said the WORDS about taking ownership for her actions and decisions, but the emotions and actions never matched the words. We got into some of the meat of the problems with our M, and I was absolutely open to admitting some of the very real communication issues we have, and some other issues I have that adversely affected our M. But she continued to try to shift the focus to me, and the "things I did that were a contributing factor" to her having a 5 month long A with her coworker. She has still absolutely refused to consider leaving her job. Nor have her absolutely insane hours abated in any way. Just this Tuesday, she was at work from 8 AM to 2 AM. When she's not physically AT work, she's at home on conference calls. Her precious job continues to dominate every aspect of our lives, and her consciousness, leaving little room for R.

Even the M counselor finally came around to seeing the total disconnect between her words, and her emotions and actions.

So fast forward to last Friday. We live about 6 miles away from Watertown, MA. As you all know, basically the entire city was on red alert/lockdown while they searched for the suspects. I woke up that morning, and was watching the news, I said that there were things that I had seen before I went to bed that didn't seem to make sense in light of what the news was now reporting. She proceeded to get VERY angry with me and start a fight... AS SHE GOT READY FOR WORK. I asked her what could POSSIBLY be so important that she just HAD to be there today. She said she had two "presentations" to give. So we argued, and I finally said she should just go to f***ing work. then after she got texts from both her mother, father, and brother begging her not to leave, she magically decided to stay home. So that made an absolutely insane day even more tense.

This Sunday, based on some strange feeling I had, I checked her ipad, and I found in the sent messages an email to OM, with an IMDB link to the movie "Secretary", with a comment about "here's the movie I was telling you about". Now, if you haven't heard of this movie, it's a story of an intensely psychosexual relationship that develops between a man and his secretary.

At that point, I decided I could no longer stand the utter disrespect, clear violation of the (very loose) terms of NC that she had agreed to (since she refused actual NC, the parameters were "No personal contact outside of work, regarding anything other than work matters".

I told her last night that I can't do this anymore, and what I found. She immediately said I didn't have the "proper context" for that email, and kept pressing me on what "I can't do this" means. She of course made me say the words that I can't be in this marriage anymore the way it is. Undoubtedly so she can tell everyone that _I_ am the one that wants D.

We argued more, and she packed a bag, and left for a hotel.

Sorry for the novel, but so much has happened.

[This message edited by CuckoldedinMa at 1:55 PM, April 25th (Thursday)]


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
ButterflyGirl
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Default  Posted: 1:27 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

The "proper context"? The context should only be work!! A link to a movie has nothing to do with work. I don't care if it was a link to Bambi, it's not work related and should never have happened. Being the movie you said just makes it worse.

It sounds like you had a wonderful time in Hawaii and can see an amazing future where you don't have to live with someone who treats you like dirt.

Down in the S/D forum we use "FTG" for "F*** That Guy." I think we should make a new one, FTB, for F*** That B****.

Lots of hugs to you. Her actions not matching her words is a huge flag, and I'm glad you and your counselor can see it for what it is. FTB..


xBW~ 35
Two DS~ 7-Eleven
"I've wiped the shit off. It can be wiped off you know." ~ asurvivor

Posts: 2399 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: Florida, USA
5454real
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Default  Posted: 1:31 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

I see palm trees in your future! Awesome!

Got a bad feeling she will try to talk you back in. Actions, not words! Your new credo in dealing with her!

Wow! Hawaii! Also rated one of the least stressful states to live in!


BH 51, WW 42
DS 23(Mine),SD 21,SS 20(Hers),DS 9 Ours, DGS 3, DGD 1 mo
D=Day #1 5/04EA (Rugswept)
D-Day #2 3/10/12, TT til 3/13/12
Married 10yrs
“I have no love for a friend who loves in words alone.”
― Sophocles, Antigone

Posts: 3032 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: midwest
MovingUpward
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Default  Posted: 1:31 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

Undoubtedly so she can tell everyone that _I_ am the one that wants D.

My xWW forced me to make that decision and even worse made me explain to the kids what was happening knowing I wouldn't tell the young ones that their mom had boyfriend and totally disrespected the marriage. Anyway the point being she is just continuing her blame shifting. You just have to be with ok with your decision and nothing she says should matter.

Sending you mojo.


BTW Hawaii is just an awesome place.


AKA Moo

Think of the haters in your life as sandpaper; they’ll scratch you up time and time again but in the end you’re polished, smooth, and spotless..while they end up useless

We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.


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RyeBread
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Default  Posted: 1:45 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

Now you have me thinking CM. My sis lives in Hawaii and I am working towards D as well. Maybe I need to visit my sister for a bit.


Let him that would move the world first move himself. - Socrates

Posts: 1030 | Registered: Nov 2012 | From: Midwest
CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 1:50 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

Totally! We can start a club.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
libertyrocks
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Default  Posted: 1:53 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

YEAH, FTB!! you are finally free from the bondage of wondering. Good luck. Like anything, it will be hard at first, but hang in there...


Me-BW 36. STBXH-35,Recovering Alcoholic, M6yrs T13. Boys 2 & 4 1/2.
DDay #1 Nov,2012. 1 1/2 year false R & TT. 10 OW PA's 1LTA (W lied to) 3 years.
S Nov, 2013 again Jan,2014
Filed for D Feb,2014.

Posts: 962 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: So Cal, baby. :)
nutmegkitty
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Default  Posted: 1:56 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

Hi there CIM. I have been wondering how you were.

First, I am glad you are safe. What went down in your town last week was utterly unbelievable. I was absolutely riveted by the coverage. How scary it must have been to be under siege!!!!

I am sorry to hear that your ww is still in the a. It sucks. She's deep in the fog and sounds like she has no desire to get out. It sucks, and I'm sorry.

The universe is definitely sending you clear signs, I agree. I have become a big believer in them. You may have an adjustment period to all that friendliness though It can be startling if you're not used to it.


me (BS)
him (NPD Ex)
2 dds
DDay 10/7/11
OW
OC

Divorced 1/17/2013

"Diamonds aren't a girl's best friend, freedom is."


Posts: 2601 | Registered: Nov 2011 | From: MA
RyeBread
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Default  Posted: 1:57 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

Totally! We can start a club.

The "F%^$ the WW, I'm moving to Hawaii" Club...I like it!


Let him that would move the world first move himself. - Socrates

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TrustGone
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Default  Posted: 2:03 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

I am so sorry that it is not working out with your WW. My XWH#1 also made me say I wanted the D and file to make me look like the bad one. I really didn't care what his family thought, but it did cause problems with my DS(8) who thought I was the bad parent for kicking his Dad out.

It sounds like the best thing for you to do is move to Hawaii and start your NB away from your WW. It is the best way to accelerate the healing process with NC and distance. Your WW sounds like she is in no way trying to R with you and you can't do it by yourself no matter how hard you try. Sometimes it is better to just let them go.


BW-50
WH#2-51
M-9 yrs T-11 yrs
4 children-none together
DD#1-9/5/11 LTA 2yrs
DD#2-7/3/12 False R
DD#3-4/29/13 (OW broke NC)
Status: Your guess is as good as mine.

Posts: 2420 | Registered: Aug 2012 | From: Texas
CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 2:17 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

Thanks, all. Hey nutmegkitty! Good to talk to you again. Yes, last week was a truly surreal and tragic experience from start to finish.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
CheaterMagnet
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Default  Posted: 2:34 PM, April 25th (Thursday)

I'm already here in Hawaii and I have to tell you that it is the BEST place I have ever lived. I'm not on Oahu though so it's much quieter here. I doubt i would have handled DDay as well if I hadn't been here. Thankfully, the A and SA behavior all occurred on the mainland before we moved here.

I am so sorry for what you are going through. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter at all who decided to pull the plug. She will say what she wants to say no matter what you do, so don't waste any brain space on it.

Live your life. Find your peace (I typed that "beach" at first, subliminal much?). You deserve it.

((((HUGS))))


If Happy Ever After did exist, I would still be holding you like this.
All those fairly tales are full of shit.
One more fucking love song I'll be sick. ~ Maroon 5

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CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 11:46 AM, April 26th (Friday)

CheaterMagnet - I'd be lying if I said I wasn't incredibly excited about my plan to move to the islands.

1.5 days now, and not a word from her. Just a couple of Facebook posts of the martini she was drinking and the gelato she had for dinner.

We did, however, get a call from her mom, thanking her for the gift she had sent, and saying something about "I hope your weekend plans work out". She's probably driving to VA right now to see them. God only knows what ridiculous crap she's going to tell them, but like others have pointed out, I have no control over it.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
Dawnie
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Default  Posted: 11:59 AM, April 26th (Friday)

I am happy for you! You gave it your all and she was not capable of doing the same... time to start packing for Hawaii!!!!! You can walk away with your head held high, and you no longer have to worry about what she is doing behind your back -- PRICELESS!


DIVORCED! Remarried to a real man!
BW (me) - 41 (now 46)
WH (him) - 43 (now 48)
OW - 23 yr old foreign gold digging whore looking for her American meal ticket
1 14 yr old son (now 19)
married 20 years/together 25 years
D day - 9/23/2009 5pm

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daledge
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Default  Posted: 12:03 PM, April 26th (Friday)

Have a wonderful life in Hawaii, but before you go, enjoy outing the two of them at their job!

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CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 12:16 PM, April 26th (Friday)

Have a wonderful life in Hawaii, but before you go, enjoy outing the two of them at their job!

Well, we'll see about that. That will depend on her. If she decides to turn this into something even uglier than it already is, I'm not ruling it out.

I'm just hoping against hope that she can be an adult about this, and work together with me to make this as painless as possible.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
SAR681
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Default  Posted: 9:52 PM, April 26th (Friday)

Hey CiM, too funny - you started posting around the time of my D-Day#2, so I followed your story. I had taken a little break too and just started posting again.

I think your new beginning sounds just about perfect!


BW – Me, 32 FWH - Him, 33
Married 9 years, together for 14
3 Kids: 5 yrs, 3 yrs, 18 months
MOW - my "friend"
DD#1 – July 2012, admitted to an EA
DD#2 – 1/14/13, finally admitted to PA

http://endureevolve.blogspot.com/


Posts: 122 | Registered: Jul 2012 | From: Somewhere in Middle America
simplydevastated
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Default  Posted: 10:13 PM, April 26th (Friday)

Wow, that's amazing. I'm sorry she threw your gift of R in your face.

It sounds like you're making positive changes. I'm happy for you.

On a side note, if you need help carrying your bags to Hawaii, let me know. I'll take a Hawaii winter over a MA winter any day.


Me - BS, 39 (I'm not old...I'm vintage)
Two Wonderful children - DS10, DD7
Married, for now... (4+ D-Day - listed in profile.)

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Default  Posted: 10:45 PM, April 26th (Friday)

Well...Aloha! :)
I live a stones throw from Watertown myself. My family wants me to move to Oklahoma. o.0 I'd rather have relatives in Hawaii! :)

GO so I can live vicariously through you!


"since your actions don't match your words, excuse me while I stop believing you."

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Default  Posted: 12:05 AM, April 27th (Saturday)

Good for you. You seem deliberate and with resolve in your actions - which is how you should be. No kids apparently? That should make this pretty much a breeze. Had me and my STBXWW not had children then the divorce would have been so swift and quick that she wouldn't have known I was long gone. Yes, my WW is also clinging to whatever-the-fuck excuses instead of truly being honest with herself or anyone else.


I Divorced Her.

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CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 11:55 AM, April 27th (Saturday)

No, no kids. We were in the process of trying to conceive, all the while she was deep in the A. We had just decided to start looking for houses together during the A too.

I just truly cannot begin to understand what was running through her head. Maybe I never will.

It's been a tough morning. Lots of tears. I've gained an even deeper appreciation of Jeff Buckley lately. That guy knew how to reach right into his soul and pull out the pain in the most beautiful ways.

Here's a cover I did of one of his songs shortly after buying myself my new acoustic guitar for Valentine's Day. Not sure if I ever posted this:

http://youtu.be/IE3xFM8Kqz0


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
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Default  Posted: 4:46 PM, April 27th (Saturday)

If I had my choice I would be on the next plane. I lived on Oahu for 20 years and it was the happiest time of my life! Although Boston is an awesome city with the culture, history and arts Revere Beach just doesn't cut it. Nothing like the pounding of the waves at Waimea on a big surf day!!!

Maybe you can host a Hawaii G2G!!

PS I am originally from Boston so I can relate to the "friendly" thing.

Edited for the PS

[This message edited by girlsbird at 4:49 PM, April 27th (Saturday)]


D-Day 10/28/10..almost admission 7/10 Reconciled. I was the betrayed

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de.va.sta.ted
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Default  Posted: 5:50 PM, April 27th (Saturday)

It's amazing how ones life can change course.

It must feel overwhelming and disappointing right now, compounded by what you went through in Boston, but it could be a wonderful, unexpected turn for the better.


Me: BW mid 40's Him: WH mid 50's
D-Day: 2009
There is a crack in everything,
That's how the light gets in...

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nuance
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Default  Posted: 10:56 PM, April 27th (Saturday)

We were in the process of trying to conceive

Be careful, she may try to R just because she won't have much time to start a relationship and try to have kids again.

[This message edited by nuance at 10:56 PM, April 27th (Saturday)]


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Default  Posted: 11:01 PM, April 27th (Saturday)

"Revere Beach just doesn't cut it" LOL! Right?! Even Hampton is better.


"since your actions don't match your words, excuse me while I stop believing you."

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Lyonesse
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Default  Posted: 11:04 PM, April 27th (Saturday)

Great video - thanks for sharing. You have a good voice and I wish I could play guitar like that! I think it would have been very therapeutic post d-day.

Sorry you are having a tough day.


Me: BS, 40's.

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NGFinishLast
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Default  Posted: 11:28 PM, April 27th (Saturday)

I'm also 3 months out from D-Day. I wish Hawaii was an option. Go...and never look back. Oddly enough, the OM suggested the same movie, Secretary, to WW in an email. I stopped by two days ago to drop off my daughter and saw it sitting on the DVD shelf. Yeah, I'd hop a flight to Hawaii right now.


D-Day: January 2013
Me, BH: 31
Her, WW: 31
Married 10 years
Kids: Daughter, 3
Divorced: Sep 2013

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Default  Posted: 11:38 PM, April 27th (Saturday)

Guitar AND piano.
*sigh*


"Oh, what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive." - Sir Walter Scott

In my effort to be *concise*, I often come off as blunt and harsh. Sorry, don't mean to be offensive.


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hopefulmother
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Default  Posted: 9:32 AM, April 28th (Sunday)

Wouldn't it be nice if you could go back to Hawaii before she gets back? Since, she has cut off contact all weekend-you wouldn't be there to pick up where she left off. Good luck. I hope you do go and find a new, better life.


Me-BW 39
WH-39
D-day 9-4-12
Major TT 8-14
Friends for 20yrs dating since 2000
Married 10yrs with 2 toddlers
My wedding band is a symbol of hope, forgiveness, love, and grace.

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Dawn58
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Default  Posted: 10:55 AM, April 28th (Sunday)

Dear Cuckolde!!

Sounds like the universe has opened up a beautiful door for you!!! So sorry you are going through this, it sucks....I am 5 months out and it still hurts. One of the thoughts I have, is getting away from here. Away from the memories, the triggers. Start my life new!!!! Hawaii would be the perfect place for you, paradise!!!!!

I am glad you reached the point of taking care of yourself and stopping the insanity. My WH showed no remorse and chose to be with the OW. He told people that I left him (he kicked me out) and got so much sympathy. The people that work with him baked him cookies and sent food home with him. Really??? I filed for divorce first (he said that he was going to take care of the divorce) and now he is telling everyone that I filed for divorce. Poor baby, he has made himself look like the innocent victim! Has not mentioned the affair, the 4 months of lying and cheating. He is now introducing the skank as his soul mate. Great guy!!


I got into the marriage, because I loved him. I got out of the marriage, because I love me.

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CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 11:23 AM, April 28th (Sunday)

I am glad you reached the point of taking care of yourself and stopping the insanity. My WH showed no remorse and chose to be with the OW. He told people that I left him (he kicked me out) and got so much sympathy. The people that work with him baked him cookies and sent food home with him. Really??? I filed for divorce first (he said that he was going to take care of the divorce) and now he is telling everyone that I filed for divorce. Poor baby, he has made himself look like the innocent victim! Has not mentioned the affair, the 4 months of lying and cheating. He is now introducing the skank as his soul mate. Great guy!!

UGH. I am awaiting with great trepidation the next communication I get from her parents. They clearly knew nothing about what was going on as of Friday. In fact, I got a text from my father in law on Friday night asking if she was planning on coming down to VA. She had not told me that was her plan. I chose my words carefully, and without giving them any details, made it clear that I hadn't spoken with her in several days, and that when she arrived, she would not be in a good headspace. But I told him that I loved both he and Mom-in-law dearly, and told them that I'm always here to talk.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
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Default  Posted: 11:27 AM, April 28th (Sunday)

C, it sounds as though the fates have smiled on you through your agony.

You have the opportunity to begin a wonderful new life with the support of beloved family members, in a paradise I would love to visit let along begin a new life in!

I'm so sorry that your WW chooses to disrespect your gift of reconciliation. That's horrid.

However, the doors are open to a new life, and if you choose the path that is blatantly encouraging you to venture upon it, I wish you a wonderful new future.

If it is your song 'Pretending to Care', congratulations on it. A worthy composition.


Me: BW 53
Him: FWH 47
4 wonderful grown children
2 beautiful grandchildren
Married 20 years
Together 23 years
Dday March 10 2010. 4 yr A.
Me: RGN(ret), N.Dip.,BA(Psych),MA (Psych),BA Music.
OW: 55 year old taxi driver

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CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 11:31 AM, April 28th (Sunday)

If it is your song 'Pretending to Care', congratulations on it. A worthy composition.

Thanks, Diva - I wish I could take credit for that one, but it was written by the great Todd Rundgren.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 11:36 AM, April 28th (Sunday)

Wouldn't it be nice if you could go back to Hawaii before she gets back? Since, she has cut off contact all weekend-you wouldn't be there to pick up where she left off. Good luck. I hope you do go and find a new, better life.

Oh, that would be glorious indeed. Alas, I have way too much to plan/take care of first. This will take a few months.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
Diva0702
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Default  Posted: 11:46 AM, April 28th (Sunday)

I wish I could take credit for that one, but it was written by the great Todd Rundgren.

Nicely presented none the less. I am not familar with it as my genre is firmly rooted in classical opera.

You have much to tentatively consider regarding your future, but in consideration of the fact that she has not returned to your home, would it be possible for you to request that she stay elsewhere for the short term while you gather your wits and strategies?


Me: BW 53
Him: FWH 47
4 wonderful grown children
2 beautiful grandchildren
Married 20 years
Together 23 years
Dday March 10 2010. 4 yr A.
Me: RGN(ret), N.Dip.,BA(Psych),MA (Psych),BA Music.
OW: 55 year old taxi driver

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CuckoldedinMa
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Default  Posted: 2:36 PM, April 28th (Sunday)

You have much to tentatively consider regarding your future, but in consideration of the fact that she has not returned to your home, would it be possible for you to request that she stay elsewhere for the short term while you gather your wits and strategies?

Anything's possible, but I have a rather high degree of certainty that she would refuse that arrangement. She has no where to go, really. Most of our friends in the area are mine.


D-Day, 1/27/13
D-Day #2 4/21/13
D-Day #3 7/22/13
Me: BS (41)
Her :WS (43)
Married 13 years, together 21.
STATUS: Separated, divorcing

Posts: 162 | Registered: Jan 2013 | From: Boston, MA area
hatefulnow
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Member # 35603
Cool  Posted: 7:03 PM, April 28th (Sunday)

No suggestions. Just wishing you peace!

Posts: 128 | Registered: May 2012
traveldad
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Member # 34047
Default  Posted: 11:14 PM, April 28th (Sunday)

It always makes me chuckle to see how they do little things to make their friends and family think it's your doing. My wife called my attorney's office and made an appointment for me get the divorce ball rolling. Then afterwards she accused me of being the one who filed for the divorce.


DDay January 2010
Divorced July 2010...broke up 2 families
Contented single dad of 2 grown sons and two daughters.
XW talks to kids about once a year

Posts: 54 | Registered: Nov 2011 | From: Southwest
haleyscomet
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Member # 38250
Default  Posted: 3:17 AM, April 29th (Monday)

I can relate. I left my ex-bf and went back after the initial discovery to attempt reconciliation. the terms were that he would never speak to her again - specifically that he would not respond if she contacted him either by phone or text.

within 3 weeks i found texts to her on his phone. he had erased what she text him but forgot to erase his response.

i left him again and i've been gone 7 weeks today.
(entire timeline from d-day to now in thread LIES LIES, LIES)

now i'm the one doing NC - with him.

and its so true what so many are saying in this thread that its such a relief not wondering / worrying about what he's doing or to be waiting for some sign of hope

-- its over
and he never got me to say it -

fuck that - he's the one that should have told me it was over before he turned to the OW

get away as soon as you can and establish NC with her as best as you can as soon as is feasible

d-day 22 weeks ago --

its been only 3 weeks since we last spoke and 2 weeks since I last responded to a text from him but i can already see that I feel exponentially better the longer i stay away

i too went out of state to stay with family - its good to be away
i am putting in an application for my own place this week

i been getting out on the weekends and even had a lunch date yesterday


ps - forgetting sarah silverman --- hawaii --- and jeff buckley --- awesome!


me: bgf - 46
him: wwbf - 40
lived together 2-1/2 years
dday1 dec 16 2012 found texts
dday2 dec 29 2012 intercepted texts
dday3 feb 20 2013 found texts during false R
status: its over


Posts: 68 | Registered: Jan 2013
Laura28
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Default  Posted: 3:51 AM, April 29th (Monday)

HI CuckoldedinMa

I am so happy to read your posts about living the dream.

A few months after dday I realised that if FWH broke NC or I decided I just couldn't deal with what he had done then I needed a dream. A plan for the future which would bring me peace.

I am a French teacher in Oz and although I have only been there twice I love France. My dream was a cottage in the south of France, peaceful days, coffee with the locals, undemanding work and an affectionate cat. I planned to move there to live for a year or two to get all the crap out of my system.

I LOVE your dream. I love it so much I am tempted to adopt it if the worst should happen. Maybe go there first and then France. Maybe 6 months each. Who knows???

My point: I LOVE that you have something to look forward to. So often on SI I see BSs faced with the reality of separation who don't have a dream. I know that for most financial constraints and children often preclude a new start such as yours. Just wanted to say how happy I am that you have this plan for your future.

I am excited for you and your new beginning (and perhaps even a little envious).

I wish you peace and happiness in the future. Regardless of what happens.

BIG HUGS

Laura


Married 32yrs Me BW 57Yrs Him FWH 60yrs
OWzero 1988 EA?/PA? Gaslighted.
Dday May 28 2010.
OW1 1994(6mths PA, EA 16+ years).
OW2 2002(8yrs PA).
OW3 2009(1Yr PA).
Others???? Status: Not Divorcing..but.."You can't unfuck the goat"

Posts: 2755 | Registered: Jul 2010 | From: Australia
Topic Posts: 40