I find it quite difficult. Mind movies of course. The anger and disappointed. Is it me or her that he's enjoying? Does he think of her or whoever during sex? Am I enough? Do I really turn him on or ...?
Also, in terms of initiating it, I don't know how to do it. I don't think I can initiate sex at all now, even when I feel I really want it I purposely remind myself of what he's done, specially now that he's answered questions he's never answered before so I have new things to add to my mind movies.
If he is to initiate sex how should I respond? It's so awkward. I know he's having a hard time initiating it of fear of getting rejected. Sometimes I feel he's a stranger and I feel his hesitation too so just get turned off. It's like he doesn't know how to become intimate with me anymore, and I certainly don't know how to be myself with him.. Should I accept it and see where it takes us?
How do people move on when it comes to intimacy? Sometimes we cuddle, kiss, we actually sleep in the same bed! Sometimes I don't want him to hold me through the night, sometimes the mind movies take over and I can't get past that!