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Zamas
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Member # 38658
Default  Posted: 10:05 PM, May 7th (Tuesday)

In depressed, plus I drink too much, and I'm fucking pissed off all the time.

Fuck this shit! Why does he get to do this to me! I fucking hate him and his stupid fucking decisions, and his total denial that had made this all of my fucking fault! Fuck him, fuck him, fuck him! FUCK HIM!!!!!


Me- SAHM 30yo BS
Him- 32yo WS
Three kids, 9, 7, 10mo

Their baby was born in Sept and they are happily househunting. He finally left 4/03.


Posts: 80 | Registered: Mar 2013 | From: New Jersey
jo2love
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Member # 31528
Default  Posted: 10:15 PM, May 7th (Tuesday)

(((Zamas)))

Let it all out. We are here for you.

Wishing you brighter days ahead.


Posts: 33995 | Registered: Mar 2011
dmari
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Member # 37215
Default  Posted: 1:41 AM, May 8th (Wednesday)

I am so sorry you are in such pain. I wish I had the right words to say to you. All this fuckery is so fresh for you. I'm just hoping you have support (family, friends, IC). I absolutely agree with you ... FUCK HIM!!


Me (BS): 42 Children: DD 18, DS 15
Settled at mediation
Officially divorced ... SOON!

Posts: 2129 | Registered: Oct 2012
CharlieFoxtrot
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Member # 38010
Default  Posted: 4:54 AM, May 8th (Wednesday)

((((Zamas))))


Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

Posts: 505 | Registered: Jan 2013
SBB
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Member # 35229
Default  Posted: 7:53 AM, May 8th (Wednesday)

((Zamas)) I made a decision on DD to stay away from booze completely.

I felt I already had too much on my plate and could not risk falling into another hole.

I know for some it seems to help but IMO it makes not just your mind and body foggy but it mucks up the waters in every area of your life.

Lean into the pain when it gets bad. Find a physical activity that releases the anger.

I rage walked. I rage cleaned. Hell - I even rage showered. I drove to remote areas and screamed my lungs out until I was spent.

Then I cried. I cried rivers. I cried so many rivers. I barely wee'd for weeks because all of my fluids were used for tears.

I promise you it will not always hurt this bad. I didn't believe it when they told me either but its true.

It will pass. Until then - take care of yourself as best you can. Hug your babies. Hug your friends. Let someone hold you while you sob in their arms.

Let it out. All of it.


Buzz- The word you are searching for is 'Space-Ranger.'
Woody- The word I'm searching for, I can't say, because there are Pre-school toys here.

Posts: 5462 | Registered: Apr 2012 | From: Australia
movingforward13
Member
Member # 38405
Default  Posted: 10:59 AM, May 8th (Wednesday)

Hugs... We are here for you. Hugs,,,


Once a cheater, always a cheater happens when your cheater doesn't have remorse.
Regret is not remorse- know the difference!

Posts: 636 | Registered: Feb 2013 | From: DC
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